Old Music - How's It Going To Be? in Random little thoughts and happenings

For some reason, I've been really digging Third Eye Blind's "How's it Going to Be" lately. I don't think I even liked the song that much when it first came out, but now I find myself actively looking for it to play on my iPod.

My only guess is that it has something to do with old loves (for me) coming into my subconscious for whatever reason. I don't even know who many of those guys are any more. Especially the ex a-hole whom I thought I'd never get over, and, of course, I did. And, just as well, they don't know me anymore either. I'm not anywhere near the same girl that I used to be.

It's not a wishful feeling that I get when I hear that song and think about what it means to me. It's a smirk on my face, I made it just fine without you, don't you wish you weren't such an asshole and still had a great girl like me feeling. Boy, aren't I a tad narcissistic?

For you youngins that may be reading this and don't have a clue what I'm talking about, first of all, you missed a great generation of music, second of all, here are the lyrics. Learn ;)

How's It Going To Be - Third Eye Blind

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing, I wonder, what are we fighting for?
When I say out loud "I want to get out of this", I wonder,
Is there anything I'm going to miss?

I wonder how it's going to be when you don't know me?
How's it going to be when you're sure I'm not there?
How's it going to be when there is no one there to talk to, between you and me?
'Cause I don't care
How's it going to be?
How's it going to be?

Where we used to laugh, there's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like the hammocks by the doorway
We spent time in, swings empty, I don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me

I wonder how's it going to be when it goes down?
How's it going to be when your not around?
How's it going to be when you found out there was nothing between you and me?
'Cause I don't care
How's it going to be?

How's it going to be when you don't know me any more?
And how's it going to be?

Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I wanna taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion
Oblivion

How's it going to be when you don't know me any more?
How's it going to be?

Or maybe it's just Dawson's Creek nostalgia. Ha!