Marriage & Sex... two things that don't go together. Part 1 in Hum... Interesting
- Nov. 13, 2013, 8:51 p.m.
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Wow, I am really jumping in with both feet aren't I? It is refreshing to find somewhere I can get some thoughts out in the open.
I have been married for many years. I have children, and a wife whom I love. But something is amiss. Something feels off and it has been this way almost since our beginning. I have often reflected on this "feeling" but haven't really been able to nail it down. I have theories and speculations but nothing fact based. This is what makes it so maddening. I live in a facts driven world. Things are either true or false, on or off... I hate unexpected exceptions so much!
I grew up in a very traditional family; same mother and father, grandparents on both sides that have been together for a million years, brother and sister, spend lots of time with cousins, stable home, sober parents and grandparents, church on sundays, white picket fence, dog in the yard... bla bla bla. I was raised to believe that you find the one you want to be with, you make that decision and then you stick it out through thick and thin being sweethearts, best friends and most importantly, lovers.
Enter JR high school. My eyes were opened. Girls, boobies, Jack D. and weed. I had entered the real world so it seems where mom and dad were no longer in control of the content that entered my life. However, certain values were instilled in me and I refrained from getting involved in most of these things, especially anything further than a batters box with girls. Ok, maybe a little first base now and then.
Enter High School. Hotter girls, bigger boobs, beer bongs at keggers and lots of other substances I shouldn't mention. So much craziness and so many people trying to pull you in so many different directions; academics, sports, losers, winners and girlfriends! Ah yes... girls. It seems I always settled for "other" girls since the ones I wanted were always taken. Of course, a couple times that wasn't an issue... ha ha... I was living the life so it seemed. A star player in the sport I was in, usually going out with very attractive girls, all the free booze I could handle and a fairly decent popularity.
However, through all this, what some might call wickedness, there was one value I never let go of, and to be honest, it is a true miracle; I would wait to have sex with the woman that I married, a woman of my dreams.
Deleted user ⋅ October 16, 2015
hmmm