cant even.* in A New Beginning to an Old Story.

I’m sorry. I can’t do this. I can’t sit here and talk to you like everything is normal. Its not. I’m not able to talk to you like everything is fine while you stand there holding my heart in your hands, slowly deciding if you want to love it, or crush it with your bare hands.

I just. I can’t.

*Edit: sleep helped me a bit. Feeling better. Definitely woke up feeling stronger. The bf started texting me and we talked. Er.. The statements at each other. It’s fucked. Were absolutely best friends, so it’s not even like we’re mad even. But the situation.. Ugh. He said “you know I still love you right?” Which to that I replied “you’ll always love me. I also know sometimes love isn’t enough.”

The retarded thing is, this is normal. It’s a thing we do. We fight, like really fight, over sex. The stupidest shit a couple can fight over. Then we get over it and ask is well for a while. But I don’t like it. It needs to stop.

Words were thrown. I think he knows I’m done with this topic. Like so done.

Now he’s acting more normal and taking about work. Even made a sex joke. Like things are fine. Which I shouldn’t be surprised because this is what ALWAYS happens. But I’m having a hard time just “going with the flow” this time. It feels awkward. And not right.

FML. Boys are so stupid. So stupid. Lol

Last updated February 23, 2015