Frustration!! in Muddling Through As Best I Can

Well, Brian told me he wanted to go to work at the prison. Not the ideal job, but I printed out the application and got him an appointment, and now he says he’s not going. Because he doesn’t like filling out paperwork. AAARRRGH!
Brad finally got a new vehicle last week, which was his excuse for not looking for work since last September. He hasn’t “felt good”. Yet, he’s felt well enough to go spend the night at a friends house twice this week, leaving his pregnant wife and stepdaughter home. I try not to judge, but this isn’t typical newlywed behavior in my mind.
I have told the kids that I’m moving out of this house and cutting off the utilities in mid-April at the latest, yet no one is making a move to do anything for themselves.
It’s just so frustrating. Even though they’ve been warned months ahead of time, they procrastinate; yet I will still feel like a bad parent because I’m not taking care of grown children who won’t work. I know, I know; it sounds stupid, but I know myself and I will feel guilty all the same.
That’s not to say I’m not going to do it.
Prayers, please, that my kids come around and make a move soon!