Well...we ended up getting home at 1am last night so I was right to write my entry in the afternoon :P It was a fun party. Cards Against Humanity was fantastic. Aaron and I (we played as a team because I had the lazy and a headache) had the game-stopping card combination, so we were pretty proud of ourselves.
I did the wise thing and didn't go to class today, which was lovely. I did, however, make the mistake of agreeing to go out with my mom and grandma. It was pretty much the last straw. After the exhaustion that was last week, I desperately needed some selfish me-time. Instead, I went out with vet school friends on Friday despite not really wanting to, went to Aaron's dad's birthday party where I talked to people I didn't know/didn't like (major social anxiety trigger which I suppressed the hell out of), and went to Amber's party, which was fun, but involved people I'm not entirely comfortable with. So, I went out with my mum and grandma and, while I love my grandma, she tries my patience at the best of times. Instead of a relaxing outing, we spent several hours looking for a warm, long winter coat, new hat, and gloves for my grandma. Don't get me wrong, it needed to be done and my mom needed help with the process but today was not a good day for me to be involved. My grandma is in her 90's and she's got some dementia. I could not handle her 15 minute loop of the same questions, observations, child-like complaints, and downer statements. It took everything I had not to run away screaming. I almost started crying in the store but thankfully did not because that would have been childish and embarrassing. To my credit, I was helpful and externally patient with my grandma, so at least there's that.
When Aaron got home from his day's endeavor, he could tell I wasn't right and shortly after that I ended up crying while trying to go over notes for my damn exam on Wednesday. Good times. Aaron made me some lovely chai and kept me company, which help a bit, but I'm still in a funk. I don't want to study (have to),I don't want to go to class tomorrow (have to. because of one class. Erg), and I don't want be around large, draining, groups of people (hello, school!). I think I'm supposed to have plans this weekend with vet school friends for shopping an the Mall of America but I think I might have to bail for my sanity's sake. I also feel bad because I haven't seen Genevieve in a long time and miss her but I don't think I can make that happen this weekend, either. It's supposed to be warmish this weekend. If I can make myself want to do something other than hide in the house, maybe Aaron and I could go on a small hike somewhere, so I can just concentrate on placing my feet and not talking. That sounds perfect right now. That, and playing with a room full of puppies that are miraculously not pooping everywhere. I'm ready for an escape.
I'm sorry this is such a downer entry. It hasn't been a good week+.
Here's a picture of a litter of sleeping kittens from when I worked in an animal shelter to make up for it:
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