online 'dating' in Depression

Got such a good response from the last entry! Nobody made me feel weird about feeling how I do about this guy. You’ve actually made me feel less weird and scared about meeting him.

My best friend went on a date with a guy she met on tinder today. Tgsyve been talking for about two weeks. She’s so brave! But he does seem like a genuinely nice good guy. Plus he’s adorable! I’ve been talking to her to make sure she’s still alive and all is good!

But one of the things I’m scared of in the future of dating this guy is sex. I haven’t blogged ( would I call this a blog? Diary/blog/thingy?) about it but I have had sex. Only once though. May have been a one night stand… Which I wouldn’t recommend for everyone but I was sick of being terrified and wanted to try it. It was fine, hurt a bit but I lived. That’s all we did though, just the actual deed really.

Anyway, what scares me about a relationship is sex. Not particularly the stuff involved, but being naked with another person. I hate my body so much that I think that would stop me from enjoying it. I just feel hideous. Hopefully by the type I do that with him (if I do) I’ll be a) slimmer as b) more confident.

Sorry if that was a bit tmi. Actually not sorry, my blog/diary/thing, my say on what content goes in so fuck it 😆