Irritable in My this and that

Once again I find myself feeling irritable to the point where my bones feel annoyed. I know, that sounds ridiculous… but literally the core of my body is so annoyed with having to sit in this chair at work and answer the phone pleasantly and smile at those who walk in, and be not nice to my coworkers.

I need a day off.

I can’t afford a day off. Saving for a trip. Just four months and… however many days away… Pray I don’t crack before then.

You know in movies when a character goes insane and they just kind of laugh uncontrollably but it’s not a happy sound at all? I feel that going on inside me.

Don’t worry… it’s just PMS. I know this… that is how I can overcome these feelings and just get past it.

But part of me wants to cross my arms, shake my head, and say “NO. I don’t WANT to get past this. I just want to be annoyed and irritable and angry and you can’t do anything to stop it so just leave me alone!” But I’m a big girl, and big girls don’t do that.

Being an adult is hard sometimes.

(In other news… I may have lost both running buddies for tonight’s jog… which means I have little hope of actually getting off my butt and heading out to do it on my own. But I shall try.)