and thinking continues, it cannot end. the world keeps spinning in its infinity, turning then turning again, mind stirred into frivolous things (such as living), mind mingling with common confusions, and still, she keeps writing, extracting varied elements of idea and dream from her environment with its muddled atmosphere, swirling in its suspension and at its extents
herself is trying to run from all of these translations, herself wants to escape these insanities, run to the boundaries of being, then just accept the purposeless. aspects of her self. this existence, with its instances devouring time in action and evolution, beyond anything eternal yet seeming to drift on and on and on, and continuing... her mind, sifting through ruins, sorting through it's myriad of utterances, with translucence, the time is translucent, thought is translucent, and she is accepting her smallness in this vast world, yet still staying in these spaces of non-freedom, remembering the longness of the past, remembering those ancient things dated, then re-dated, some remaining undated and leaving her mind in wonder, with another set of confusions and distortions that can't be sorted with or without degrees of any forms of accuracy
her mind could drift back to the dark corners of its smallness (after all, it must be quite small, since this living is so large), her mind could think just of gentle clouds, then become the gentle clouds, then drift, then drift again, then return to the earth, featureless, and in silence
in the oldness or newness of being she began to write about the continuation of thinking, of consciousness, of its bands and layers as situations far beyond her own control, but in the midst of her own serenity...
thinking sometimes requires long strides and patience, with wisdom, as it sits in its stillness then traverses its own lonely hiking trails in its own mountains of memories, workout senses...
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©️ mvclarke, for much deliberation, July 2026
note: these thoughts were compiled from entries ~618 to ~626 of my 'thinking' does on my site... https://formuchdeliberation.wordpress.com/tag/thinking-writing-project/
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