Turmoil in How we’re feeling about him

I honestly don’t know how I’m feeling about today. I feel like I was giddier after the first date, which is weird because we didn’t do anything but talk the entire time. I did enjoy the kiss, the hug and the hand holding, but I thought it would be more “butterflies in my stomach”, but it just feels kind of chill. Idk if that means that I don’t really like HIM that much, just the idea of him, or if I’m just very comfortable around him. I really hope it’s the latter, because he is so amazing and such a good person to have all my firsts with (which I’m also not sure about, bc what if I’m being selfish and subconsciously just using the first nice guy I could find to take all my firsts, and kind of leading him on, just to later find out I have no real feelings for him)