Days have passed. Weeks spent inside these walls. I only step out when hunger calls, a quick trip to the nearby store, then back again. Some days blur into the next without ever opening the door. No steady internet. Not enough money for the things I want. Just this.
Not sad. Not happy either. Somewhere in between, content within the quiet of my comfort zone. Alone, and that's okay.
But sometimes my mind wanders. What if I went somewhere? Would I enjoy it out there? What if I tried that food, visited that place? And then, gently, the thought settles, what difference does it make? What does the outside have that home doesn't?
Adventure. Scenery. Learning. Life.
I hope everyone gets to experience the things they long for. I hope everyone is given that chance. They say, while you're still young, "eat what you want to eat, buy what you want to buy, go where your heart leads." Everyone wants that. But not everyone can. Because even if you want it badly, some people just can't afford it yet.
Still.
I hope someday, all of it finds its way to me.
But not experiencing everything doesn't make me any less. I can say: I lived within what I could, and I will keep going — tomorrow, or maybe the day after, next week, next month, or whenever that season comes.
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