Dear A,
It’s really hot today. The sky is a vivid blue, perfectly clear, though there is still a slight chill in the wind that catches you if you stand still too long. The car said 27 degrees when I came out of Sainsbury’s, which felt almost excessive. I went to buy groceries for the weekend. I don’t buy ready meals, just ingredients - ready meals are too expensive. I tend to cook for myself, whether I feel like it or not.
I keep circling back to the interview on Wednesday. If they ask when I can start, I think I will say Thursday, just begin immediately and get on with it. Though that does bring the complication of Florence. I am away from the 15th to the 26th, and I do not know how that will land, starting a job and then needing ten days off almost straight away to visit Italy. Still, I’m not cancelling. It was booked months ago (January) and if that’s a problem for them, then perhaps it is not the right place for me. Two other jobs appeared last night, which changes the feeling of this one. It no longer feels like everything rests on one outcome. Something else will come up.
It’s too warm to think about a cooked meal tonight. I might just have a cold cider, some crusty bread, and the week-old cheddar from M&S. The final of “I’m a Celebrity, South Africa” is on at half seven, so I will probably eat while watching that and then head to bed. I am planning to go to the gym in the morning - no weights, just a swim.
I do wish I could get off TikTok. I spend far too much time on it, more than I want to admit, and I can feel it affecting how I think. The worst is lying in bed at night doom-scrolling. It is not good for my sleep, and I know that, but I still do it. I need to get a handle on it. How though?
Anyway, I’ll leave it there. If you ever read this, then you’ll know how things felt today.
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