I struggle with finishing an entry most days around here.
The amount of things on my to do list doubles almost daily and I get next to none of it done. Like I should have been busting ass all day today because my mom is coming to visit in less then a week but I didn’t really do much in the way of cleaning up around here.
I wiped down the sliding patio doors and that was about it. I need to quit screwing around and after writing this purchase the few items I wanted to get for Mother’s Day for my Mom. I know mother’s day isn’t until May but I wanted to be able to send her home with her gift so I didn’t have to pay $$$ to ship stuff.
I have a doctors appointment on Monday. Then Tuesday my kid has off from school and I intended on taking him to get a picture done for applying for a new passport for him. I just think I’d feel better knowing he has a valid one. I have to keep an eye on mine it’s due to expire next year and so I dont want it to lapse either.
Anyways I went to 3 places this afternoon in search of some mother’s day things. I got a few things. I’m still not entirely sure what I’m getting for my Mom everything seems like stuff she wouldn’t really like and I don’t want to just buy her crap that will sit around. SO I picked up some fancy quilt magazines because she does like those and use to read them a lot. I order two crafting items..and then I’m thinking about a gift card to the local plant store near her. But I need that gift card to get her before she visits and it’ll be cutting it close.
We shall see.
In true my life fashion I got a letter in the mail saying a claim under my son’s name wasn’t processed because it showed him having some other insurance higher then the one he has....Im like he doesn’t have a second insurance I have no idea what the claim is and so now we get to call Monday to figure out what that is about. I tried logging on and it has been over a year since I logged on last and so it deactivated my account so I had to re sign up go thru the entire process etc. Like my ability to handle things like this comes with .5 seconds of patience and then I just lose it. Because then my brain starts going on about I’ve yet to find a new doctor for myself and son and that’s a big priority and I’ve sat for 4 months not doing it. I don’t want something to happen and not have access to a doctors. SO I need to do that. I need to look into when our next eye appointments need to happen. And then my brain starts just getting pissed off because all this shit usually falls on me. It’s tiresome.
Then I get down because I realize how little time I have left with my kid in his HS years. Sure I don’t think he’s moving out in the second he graduates I know it’s weighing on him a lot because he has no plans but yea..we’ve got about a year left. I never thought this day would come and here it is. I think back on those first few nights when I was up in the middle of the night feeling like the only two people awake at that hour and thinking 18 years was a long time. Now it feels like an entire lifetime ago. Sooo many things happened, changed and moved.
So yea. It’s a lot right now. I find myself finding reason to crash out and not deal with it. This year was suppose to be getting the shit back together..but I don’t feel like I’ve made a single step in the right direction.
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