Luv these [Private Entry] Tuesday, November 16, 2004 in scarlet_dragon

Different colored powders smeared across her hides the flawless face of a crazy beautiful girl. Lip gloss and shimmer left on the lips of boys when all they wanted to taste was the tenderness of her. The dye in her hair takes away the sand color that every other beach bum wants. The different shade of contacts in her eyes makes it hard to look in to the eyes of a crazy beautiful girl. looking past her made up self, looking past the fake greens that shadow her brown eyes, looking past her hair roots that are growing out. You’ll wonder how this crazy beautiful girl can change her self so much. I have a twenty dollar bill that says no one has ever seen her with out make up. Butterflies filled his stomach as he got closer to the chain linked fence. “Just look down and walk fast,” was repeated over in his head. Its clear in his sight, he stops and breathes in for luck. His hands are tight in his pockets as they become sweaty. He walks fast but seems to be getting nowhere. He hears a noise coming close towards him and imagines the worst. Until the chain linked fence with his biggest fear on the other side has turned into a white picket fence with nothing but green grass. My heart is more tattered then it has ever been. Im asking you nicely don't play with my emotions again. Worse than before your empty kisses cant fix it anymore. My heart is heading for you hands, so you can beak it again. Continue to keep your arms open to see if ill run in to them. I’ve gone to cry in someone else’s arms, I guess it goes to say threes a charm. A fatal accident left her bruised and broken. She gives her self only five minutes a day to feel sorry for her self. She has to cry and know that she can’t whip her own tears from her face. She can’t recall the memories she swore she’d never forget. She knows she was made to stay for something. She didn’t fall from the sky for any other reason. She’s learning how to fly, because even angles die. leave me in the crowd where I should be, where no one has ever noticed me, im writing something you'll never hear, the face you make when you read my thoughts is just to much to bear, please stay right here don't ever leave, with out your hand in mine its hard to breathe, im the picture that goes unfocused, the girl that no one will ever notice, i don't think you feel the way that I do, you will never be there to say I love you, just leave again like you always do, again im alone still wanting you, I finally came to my senses, I guess what comes next is for the best, I took your picture from my wallet, it lies by my feet as I cry in my closet, leave me here where I should be, where no one has ever noticed me, all I want is for my emo kid to love me. when he left he had an excited face covering his scared emotions he doesn't like to talk about what happened but no one ever asks there are some things the human mind should never have to live with, some things the body should never have felt he sits on his bed, with a fine gloss over his eyes replaying every second of everyday that is now his unforgettable past his strong man image left him the day he came home with a burden that he wouldn't be able to lift. A single word, a single meaning He left the house in a hurry Set a bag carefully in the back The radio playing his favorite song No time to buckle as the window gets rolled down He was changing the station as he crossed the double lines Flowers for the loss The phone rings as she's drying her hands 'hello' in a pleasant Saturday voice the loss of breath sends her to her knees tears damp on her cotton sweater the phone is left off the hook 'im so sorry' is faint over the weeps cant go on the hottest night of the summer cant take the cold away from his side of the bed he walks past as if he doesn't know her, you'd never be able to tell that these two people fell hard for each other once its as if she said 'I want to fall in love' and went for the jump and he was there to say I'll catch you. And opened his arms with the simple words 'I cant do this anymore' her heart was torn out he'd look straight ahead even if he had the chance to look down at her they still laugh and they still live but with out one another does it matter she knows how to make him feel bad, he knows how to make her cry don't believe them when they say words will never hurt you