Sometimes you dissapoint me Saturday, November 13, 2004 in scarlet_dragon

So after gushing on and on about Kris in the last survey I took I almost feel like taking it all back he can really make me upset ...my face is all red and so are my eyes so I have to sit here for alil bit till I look normal again b/c I don't want my mom to see me like this she already thinks Kris and I aren't meant to be...but I called Kris and he's like I'm busy I'll call you back which happens everytime I call him he's busy and he's always like well call me well dickweed when I call you ur always freakin busy so wtf???So i was like fine and he's like I'll call you later which I'm thinking later in like 3 hours so I go take a shower and after I get out I thought I heard my mom on the phone and I heard her say if your so unhappy then maybe you should change ur life and I didn't know who she was talking to but then I'm like great I bet it's Kris and he gave me some lame ass excuse for what he was talking about....but I think it's about me which pisses me off ...but mostly upsets me.So then he's like are you coming out tomorrow I'm like I dunno I'm like are you coming out here he's like no I have to help Mike move and it's always some sort of exuse as to why he can't come out here and I know it's b/c he doesn't want to drive here well I guess what Kris I drive the same distance to see you so wtf so he asked me again and I'm like well it's pretty pointless if I'm only going to be out there Sunday and have to drive all the way back home he's like why would't you stay out here longer I'm like you have to work and he's like only 12-9pm so why would I want to be there now???SO i can hang with Mike I don't think so.W/e.So he asks me again if I was going to come out to see him and me being pissed was like NO so he's like fine...so I guess I won't see Kris at all n-e more and you know what if that's all I matter to him n-e more then I don't want to see him either.So he's like well I call you later Mike and I are going to dinner and I'm like well I hope you choke he's like thanks I didn't mean it but like I've said before I get pissed and say stuff I don't mean when I'm angry and then he's like well I call you later after dinner and a movie..and I'm like A MOVIE so your going to a movie too??He's like yea ....and I'm just fucking flaming right now b/c he's going to dinner and a movie it fucking pisses me off we never go on n-e dates n-e more but he will take his friend and they have to make sure they go out at least once a week...IT A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT AND I'VE HAD ENOUGH...I just wanna go outside and scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and I can't let on like n-e thing pisses me off or mom will be all like well I told you etc etc ....whatever I'm going to go cool down and w/e.