Happy March, everyone!
March? How is it March already? The last time I checked it was JUST October.
I guess that’s what happens when you spend an entire month in the hospital.
You know, through this whole ordeal, I have come to the conclusion that the weekends are the worst. I’m serious. I have nothing to get up for.
7:30-8:00 I get up to let the animals out and give them breakfast. Then nothing till noon and they need to go out again, repeat at 5 and one more time before bed.
That’s it!
So I sleep. Sleep two days away, then wonder why I can’t sleep Sunday night.
It’s doing nothing for me but making me fat and lazy. My leg and arm get so stiff and achy and I forget to take my meds.
I blame it on not having TV. I hate being forced to have internet/ cable or the television is just a paper weight. What happen to the air channels?
What happened to my internet service? It got turned off while I was in the hospital. I tried to reconnect it when I got home but they want $350 deposit plus the bill. That’s like $500 for tv…. Nothankyouverymuch! No payments, all up front. I hate the monopoly they have here.
I don’t think it not having tv, though. I think it more of the “why”.
Why get up?
Why do laundry? (I do, I’m not sitting here is stinky drawers.)
Why clean the house?
Whhhhhy?
I feel like all my energy, ambition, control is just gone. I just want to lay there like a beached whale.
I know,I know, just get up and do it and the rest will fall in place.
I can’t.
I go to bed on Friday night with such good intentions that never come to fruition the next day.
There is so much I want to do.
Last night, I had enough.
While folding laundry, I said “fuck it” and pulled out two of my dresser drawers. Instead of stuffing more clothes in them, i went through them. I put clothes I wanted to donate in a bag and it made me so happy!
That’s the stuff I wanna do on the weekend and more. Like my closet, shiver.
Maybe that’s what I do? Little task? I’m good if I can just get out of bed!
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