I don't know how to start writing. It's been a long time since I last wrote. I was listening to music while doing my Spanish homework, and I started overthinking, and I remembered I have a wonderful diary.
I'm going to read the last page and come back.
I just finished reading it, and I started crying. It touched my heart, and it hurts to have been like that.
I already skimmed it; there's not much to see, but the previous pages are powerful.
Currently, my best friend is Evelyn. I get along with Mila, but she acts like a little girl and is sometimes a bit annoying. I don't dislike Alice and Cole, but we don't talk much either, and Clara is more or less the same.
December 11th falls on a Sunday, and I'll have to celebrate my birthday that day. I invited Clara, Evelyn, Cole, Mila, Alice, and Aubrey. Honestly, very few people. I was going to invite Hailey, even though I haven't spoken to her in years, but she said she didn't want to come, so that's one less problem. Last year, I also invited Harper, Santiago, Naomi, and Hailey. Harper came, and I had to work really hard to make her feel included. Santiago didn't come; I guess he doesn't like me because he didn't invite me this year. And Naomi didn't tell me she wasn't coming when I asked her.
I think Harper was one of the worst people because she told us all the bad things she did—okay, if you trust us. But then she had a toxic personality and insulted me, etc. The worst was when she told me I was selfish for some reason or other. She hurt me a lot, both physically and mentally; she was there for me during the worst period of my life. I still remember the first few days of first year, when it was just Madeline and me, talking about everything while we wandered around the playground, and I still couldn't say everything. It's probably nostalgia, but oh well...
I don't know what I like anymore, art or something else. My problem with art is that I'm not good at it.
Classes are going normally. These are my grades for the first term:
-Biology: 8
-PE: 9
-Art: 6
-Chemistry: 8
-Geography: 9
-Spanish: 9
-Math: 6
-English: 10
-Religion: 8
-French: 10
-Technology: 7
My dad just came into my room.
Well, biology, he's just very strict. In PE, I did my best in flexibility, and I just can't do basketball. I tried really hard in art, but the test was impossible. I don't know about chemistry. I did very well in geography, thanks to my mom for helping me with the assignment. I wasn't expecting that in Spanish; I got a 9.2 on the book test, and I didn't even read the whole book. Math: I can't stand that thing; I sometimes lose focus in math class. In English, I got 10s, except for the speaking exam, which I froze up on, and Anthony, a native English speaker who isn't even a teacher, gave the grade. In religion, the teacher just makes up the grades. In French, the whole class got 10s, but at least we're a good French class. #Daisy. Technology: WTF, that guy.
Today I felt unwell after lunch. Afterwards, I played Roblox with Evelyn, and we put up the Christmas tree and nativity scene at my house. It was a strange long weekend because I had classes on Monday and Wednesday, but I didn't go because I was traveling. I arrived back Tuesday evening because Grace and my dad watched the World Cup Round of 16 in Qatar.
I'm going to talk about my body. I don't like seeing myself so thin, but I'm afraid of gaining weight. Besides, I don't know how I want to start exercising. Anyway, my arm hurts from typing because, like before, I've been doing Spanish homework.
My online friends are Guicy and Crop, who I don't know if she'll stick around much longer because she thinks I'm a girl, and there's a six-hour time difference. The other one is Celine, who we don't talk to as much anymore. It's not like she avoids me, but it's strange.
My dad called Grace and me to bring boxes of oil and remove staples from papers.
He came earlier, but when he saw I was writing here, he left. I think my favourite show is Wednesday; luckily, I didn't get too many spoilers, and it's very intriguing. I hope they make a second season. And my favourite band is Crystal Castles. Their songs are epic. It's a shame the singer, Alice Glass, isn't in the band anymore, especially with all the controversy. Oh well, I still love their songs. It's 12:02 AM. I can't believe three-quarters of an hour has passed while I was writing here. I'm 13 years old, in case you're too lazy to do the math. I don't know if I want to study computer science or what. It's actually pretty cool to be able to use technology on a large scale. I don't know much about my sexuality. Some men can seem attractive to me, but women too. Besides, to know if I like a certain gender, there have to be examples, but of all the guys I've met, none have a personality I like, but I do like girls. I'll probably have to stop writing because my mom is already in her room, which means I'll have to go to sleep soon.
Well, goodbye, and let's see if I can write tomorrow. I'll tidy up my room a bit now. What a huge essay I wrote! I don't know if I'll ever read it, but I hope so. I finished at 12:15 a.m., so I guess that counts as tomorrow.
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