Up a little early again today. Drinking coffee. Thinking of all the stuff I gotta do today. I can hardly believe it’s Friday already! This week has flown! I know it’s because I’m busting ass at work. I will be having more freak outs I know….I’ve got a HUGE presentation to prepare before I leave for a major business trip out of the country at the end of the month. Sometimes I wonder what I’ve gotten myself into with this promotion and all! But it’s fun and exciting! I just wish I had a little help. I really need another person in my area (not just my administrative person). It’s way too much for me to handle right now. Good thing is, my boss knows this and is aware and trying to get the budget in place….I just hope it doesn’t take too long!!
Lance didn’t bug me yesterday. I’m sure it was only because I was out of the office all afternoon. I’m starting to get kinda creepy feelings about him. He’s certainly a different breed. Thing is, I could work it to where he could help me get a lot of projects done! I just have to angle it in such a way that his ego gets stroked. I have talked to him long enough to know that’s what he wants/needs. I just don’t want to give him the wrong idea. I’m sure it didn’t help for me to be all blushy and giggly during our first conversations! Dammit!
I sent LDL a pretty serious e-mail yesterday before I left the office, and I haven’t heard a response to the note yet. I wonder if I will or if he will just let the topic rest. He’s been trying to push my thoughts about his visit…and I haven’t been able to sit down and put my feelings into an e-mail. If you notice, I haven’t even been able to really expound on his visit even in my diary. I’m not sure what to say. I may cut and paste my e-mail and add to those thoughts in here later. I would like to get some kind of response from him first, though. Honestly, I don’t have the emotional energy to do any of that right now!!
Weekend plans: I had talked about visiting my best friend who lives about a four hour drive from here over the weekend. She had called me the day before yesterday to see if I was going to make it. I finally got around to calling her yesterday to tell her that I didn’t feel like I was going to be able to make it (work stuff and all). I feel like such a schmuck. She’s lived in her city for over a year now, and I haven’t been down to visit once!! What a loser friend I am!
Speaking of loser friend, I talked to another friend yesterday about maybe getting cocktails last night, and when I got to my apartment, I let out a big sigh and plopped myself down in front of the computer with the TV going in the background and just vegged. The phone rang and I didn’t even answer.
I have written about it before…I do this little “avoidance” thing when I feel overwhelmed. It’s come on strong during the past couple of years. I don’t like it, but I still do it. Something that I need to work on. I love my friends dearly. I do. I certainly don’t want to blow them off. But it has been happening with more frequency lately…and it’s got to stop!!
Speaking of stop, I must end here as I’ve got to get ready for work now. Even though I’ve been getting up a little early the last few days, I have started overcompensating with my time and ended up being LATE! Sheesh….will nothing ever work the way I intend??
Okay…off and running!!
Until later!
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