All kinds of stuff rolling around in my brain as I get ready for work this morning! But first I’m going to run and take my shower…I’ll be back…
Okay. Back drinking coffee. I kinda like doing journal entries first thing in the morning before work. Except for the fact that if I don’t get up early enough, then I find myself doing the mad scramble before I walk out the door to head to work. I really hate that feeling, so I’m going to try to keep myself on a timlier schedule—and stick to it!
The weekend was pretty nice. I hate the fact that I worry about not getting work done on the weekend. I need to just try to forget about it and enjoy. I need to make sure that I can get everything done during the workweek…stay late if I have to. Unfortunately, I seem to go braindead in the late afternoon, and nothing seems to remedy that.
Oh yeah. The weekend. I didn’t do anything Friday evening. Saturday I ran errands for most of the day and then decided to go out with a girlfriend from the gym and her boyfriend and a couple of other friends. Mistake #1. They picked me up at my apartment. Mistake #2. We went to this nightclub that was packed with nothing but muscle-head guys and fake-tittied girls. Mistake #3. One of the meathead muscle-guys who was with us decided that he was going to get in a fight even before we got to this place!! I mentioned something to my girlfriend about making sure that I kept enough cash to catch a cab home. The thought kept entering my mind throughout the night. And by the end of the night, some bouncer made some kind of comment to me as I was waiting for my drunk friends…..I decided I’d had enough and really did take a cab home!
I’m way too old for that crap!
Woke up feeling like hell on Sunday morning!
Remember CP (from the Miami trip)? She’d invited me to attend her daughter’s 2nd Birthday Party on Sunday afternoon. It was really cute, except for the fact that the baby was sick the whole time. Poor little sweety was just crying and feverish.
The good thing about being single and childless is that I got to hang at this party and drink beer and shoot the shit with all the guys! All the other females (except one other happy-looking woman) were there with kids…mostly babies. Babies throwing food and spitting up on their moms! I’m so bad. But it was fun!
CP’s husband is really nice and funny and he’d invited several of his buddies over (some of them single, too!), and we just had a good ole time! In fact, a little too much of a good time. By the time I was leaving, one of the guys almost had me talked into going out on his boat that evening! I considered it–seriously for a second! And then I realized what a big mistake that would be. I hadn’t even realized how many beers I’d consumed until I got in my car! Shhh! I know. Terrible.
I seemed to immediately get the blues when I walked in the door of my apartment. I don’t know what came over me, but I was terribly sad. Logged on and read some faves, and then LDL popped on. Told him I had the Sunday blahs, and he was sweet and called me and sort of “tucked me in bed” while we talked on the phone. I do miss his sweetnes. That man can be so loving…when he wants to be. I’ve been thinking about him a lot lately. Still don’t really want to go into detail…just thinking a lot.
So yesterday was back to the grind and more nerves and stress. I tell you. I don’t know what to do about that. But something’s got to change. And I know it’s my attitude.
Lance has backed completely off! Just as quickly as he came on, he was gone! I did run into him in the hallway yesterday, and we had a very professional conversation. None of that creepy mind-play stuff that he tries to pull to act smart. I have realized in thinking about some of our past conversations is that he really tries to overcompensate by acting like a superior being! And it worked for like a day on me! I haven’t let him know that I’ve caught onto his game verbally, but if he’s so sensitive and smart, then he’s caught onto the vibes I’ve been sending him! And I guess he has! So I know he’s not dumb….he just overcompensates.
Oh well…enough babbling for this morning. Time to fix the hair and figure out what the hell I’m going to wear today.
Coffee’s kicking in…guess that means I have to go now!!!
Good Tuesday, all!
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