When LDL and I were seeing each other and we couldn’t spend Sunday night together, we’d both get the Sunday blues.
We had Sunday evening down to a science: We’d eat dinner and then do laundry while watching Sex and the City and The Sopranos. Then we’d take a bubble bath that would always lead to incredible candle-lit sex and then he’d either read me stories from his magazines or we’d take turns rubbing each other’s backs until we would drift off to sleep by the flickering TV light.
It was always a bummer when something interrupted our routine or for some reason we couldn’t spend the night together.
Now it seems that I am bluesy every Sunday night. Plus…I don’t have cable!!
I spent the day with my parents today. They were babysitting my cat while I was on my trip last week, and I had to go get him because a week is really the cutoff point. That’s when he starts driving them crazy. He is big into routine (like me—see beginning of entry), and he likes to get up pre-crack-of-dawn (when I get up for work) to be fed. He is very talkative and finds very resourceful ways of waking a person up when he thinks it’s time for him/her/them to get up and feed him.
It was actually quite a fun day. I’ve been looking for several items for my apartment, and they just happen to live in an area that is a flea marketer’s heaven! We stopped by a couple of places and even went to an auction for a while until we discovered that the stuff they were auctioning off was nothing but junk. And not even the one-man’s-trash-is-another-man’s-treasure junk. This stuff was pure crap. We laughed. Then left.
Had dinner at some friend’s of my parent’s. They were actually having several couples over for dinner. I was kind of an oddball, but I love these old folks dearly. They are hilarious! The husband makes a killer margarita and he can barbeque like a mo fo! The wife is as nice as can be, and the friends are great too! We laughed and laughed…there was never a lull in the conversation. This is the kind of special evening that I’d love to share with someone. I mean, all these couples, married for years and years (my parents just celebrated their 38th wedding anniversary)…and they are all obviously still so incredibly in love with each other. Like they are just best friends. An amazing bond. They are respectful of each other and they listen to each other and they laugh with each other. God, I just adore that! I so want that.
All too soon, I had to leave so that I could make the haul back home with kitty in tow. Normally, he gets carsick on the ride. It’s a little over an hour drive, and he just can’t handle it, poor little thing. This time, I was a sucker and petted him and loved on him and talked to him the whole way home. Well, it worked! And it was worth it because I didn’t have any puke to clean up after the drive!! Hoo-frickin-ray for small miracles!!
So I got home and settled into my seat to IM with LDL. He was online, but as soon as I got on, he told me he had to leave to run over to a friend’s to do something. I hate to say it, but I got the blues in a major way when he signed off. Pathetic. I need to break away from depending on this stupid box I call a computer again. I’ve fallen into that trap before, and I don’t want to do it again. I just wanted to talk. That’s all. Just wanted to share some of the funny things we laughed about today and at dinner tonight.
I can’t seem to find the right balance…there’s a fine line between simply being alone and outright lonely.
Well, enough of this. I gotta crawl into bed. Tomorrow I face reality again. The office. The inbox that has completely overflowed since I’ve been gone. I have access to my work e-mail from home, but I’ve avoided checking it over the weekend because I wanted to completely rest up these past two days. Tomorrow I will start digging again. And I will try my damndest to not stress out as much as I normally do. I try to remind myself on a daily basis that I’m not performing brain surgery. It’s not life and death. It’s millions and millions of dollars, sure (make that hundreds of millions)…but NOT LIFE AND DEATH!!!!
Okay…goodnight all you lovelies.
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