Not a Negative Entry in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

  • May 28, 2002, midnight
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I will not write a negative entry. No I won’t. I will not write an entry about simply giving up. I will not sit here and tell you that I’m done. Over it. And I won’t tell you that I’ll never, ever understand.

I won’t write an entry about boys. Or men. Or guys, males, dudes, or even chaps.

And I’m certainly not going to tell you that I’ve been defeated. That I’m putting too much into it and not getting anything in return. Because that would be negative. And I won’t write a negative entry.

So I won’t go on to say that after looking forward to tonight, Ethan sent me an e-mail to cancel our date. I won’t mention the fact that his reason is that he is “exhausted”. I won’t even question why every guy I’ve gone out with in the last few weeks has been too “tired”. Too exhausted to see me. Too weary to stay out late with me. Too spent to get it up…for me.

Furthermore, I’m definitely not going to think that it’s me. Because there’s no way that I could possibly the reason that every man in town is sleepy. Could it be that there’s something in the air or the water system or something? Hm… Something to think about. Maybe even research and write about at another time. Because something like that would be incredibly tragic. Dangerous, even. And there’s no room in this entry for bad news.

Nope. There’s no way in hell that I’m going kvetch and bitch and whine and moan and complain and act like a big baby. I’m not even going to feel any negative emotions. I won’t say anything if I don’t have anything nice to say.

In fact, I’m not even going to write an entry at all!


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