Highs/Goodbyes in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

Whoa. I knew this month would be a wild emotional rollercoaster, but it is almost out of control. The highs are practically in outer space while the lows sink me down into uncharted waters.

Luckily, today is a very high day. For all intents and purposes, it’s my last day at work. Officially, my last day is the 15th, but I’m out of the office tomorrow and Monday, and I don’t foresee doing anything on Tuesday. Not that I’m actually doing anything today. The biggest thing I’ve accomplished today is a trip to the mailroom so I could mail an internal correspondence and a couple of bills.

Other big plans on my calendar today include a girly-girl lunch with The Pink Princess and Tiff (three redheads, can you imagine?!) and a happy hour in my honor after work!!! There’s also a surprise going-away party for me at 2:00 that I’m not supposed to know about (Heee! Someone spilled the beans)!! Good thing I’m looking very sharp today with my tan suede skirt, black wrap top, black suede tall boots, and a gorgeous necklace and earring ensemble I bought while I was shopping for Best Bud’s birthday gift. Top it off with a great hair day and you can see why I feel ten feet tall today.

I feel AMAZING today!!! Please let this feeling last for a while!! Puh-leeeaaassseee!

You would not believe how cool Mr. Peepers and Big Boss have been the last few days. I mean, out of the way nice to me. I know, I know. They don’t want me to spill all of the horrific shit they pulled on me the last couple of months during my exit interview. Eh. Whatever. You know I won’t rat them out. Let them wallow in their own mud. I will revel in the knowledge that they are still gonna be miserable after I’m gone. That’s pure satisfaction, I say.

Plus, this is no time for bridge burning. This is a giant, very important corporation. And a huge customer of my new company. And it’s not that I’m playing nicey-nicey so much to be politically correct as I’m doing it for selfish reasons. I’m trying to build my own career, not bad mouth people. That kind of nasty stuff gets around. I’m finally positioning myself for greatness. I know I won’t get many chances like this. I have to make all the right moves, even if it means keeping some of this shit inside.

Or on the pages of OD, right?!

Speaking of OD, I had my very first real live phone conversation with an OD buddy the other day (Hi Pal, you know who you are)!! I have to say that it was kind of thrilling in a bizarre sort of way. He sounded exactly like I’d imagined from reading his writing. And it really got me wondering what he looks like. I now have a mental image stuck in my head and I probably won’t be able to rest until I can confirm that my mental image is correct! Anyway. It was fun to talk with him. Very cool guy.

And speaking of very cool guys, it appears to me that Super T is cooling off. I can’t decide if I’m happy or sad about it. I suppose he’s just easing us both into the inevitable. Honestly, if we have to say goodbye, I think I’d rather go out with a bang (!!!) than just fizzle out. Really.

I’m so into his stuff when we’re together in person. We both get all steamy and worked up that we end up just slamming each other into bed the moment we get home. It’s so intense. He’s so delicious. I can’t get enough of him. I want just touch him continuously.

But if we don’t see each other for a couple of days, I feel as though we both wilt a little bit. We talk on the phone every day, but we don’t have a good phone connection. That’s another reason I don’t like just chatting on the phone. It’s a very different dynamic than face to face. We lose that electric vibration. The chemistry. We would not do well in a long distance relationship. He’s the kind of guy I need to be extremely physical with.

Bummer.

But I don’t want that to bring me down!! Gotta get back into ultra high mode!! Super T will be at the happy hour tonight. I think I will take off my panties beforehand and tease him a bit in front of my soon-to-be former co-workers!! Maybe sneak him into a dark corner at some point to recharge our batteries. Whoopee! I hope I’m preparing myself for a long, sleepless night!

Tomorrow morning, bright and early, I fly to my new city to search for an apartment. I’m meeting an agent who has a whole bunch of places lined up for me to look at. I’m kind of excited about that. She’s e-mailed a bunch of photos of some really darling digs. We plan to spend all day together, AND we’ve been invited to a party tomorrow night! A guy who is renovating a bunch of old places is having a shindig for his tenants. He wants us to go to meet the potential new neighbors. He says there should be about 100 or so people there. I know he’s proud of his work. The photos are amazing. Cool!

Saturday I think I will do some exploring on my own. I may get in touch with a girl I used to work with several years ago. I found out through mutual friends that she’s been living in this town for a couple of years now. We’ve been e-mailing a bit but haven’t set a time to hook up. Maybe coffee or something. Hope she can meet!

So I guess I better go for now. There’s still so much to do and I want to try to get a lot in while I’m still riding this happy wave!

Let the FAREWELL CELEBRATIONS begin…!