Happy Thursday.
I gave up smokes for Lentafter I smoked about ¾ of a borrowed pack on Fat Tuesday in front of AtH while he watched me, horrified. And then he drove me home because I was too drunk to hold a normal conversation. Brilliant way to win over the neighbor youre in love with, eh?
Perhaps Im subconsciously sabotaging. I [think I] desperately want him to like me. But Im terrified of what the consequences might be if he does eventually. So hmmm. Acting like a moron is going to help the situation?
I hung with him on Monday night. He had his best friends over, and I felt honored that he wanted to introduce me to them. Actually had a fantastic time drinking wine and telling stories and laughing. Friends seemed to like me (I hope, anyway), I dont think I overstayed my welcome, and as he was walking me to the door to say goodbye, the guy I met in the elevator was calling. Elevator Guy has such an unusual name, that I mentioned it to AtH, and I detected just the teeniest, tiniest bit of barely-there jealousy from AtH. I didnt do it on purpose (the game playing thing), but it kinda worked to my advantage.
But then I got to thinking:
Good thing I have more time to think about this. Long plane rides make me think. And think. And think. Long trips also make it hard to nurture budding friendships. So frustrating all of this.
I have to force myself to let it go. Theres too much energy wasted in worrying.
Parking Lot Guy [PLoG?] sent me a really nice e-mail today. Hes the one who saw me on my good hair day. I dont know very sweet of him, but kind of boring introduction. It sucks that Im so interested in my neighbor. Still, Im going to write the guy back, because what the hell, right? Its going to be funny when we see each other again. Hell probably blow me off when he sees Im not having a perfect hair day.
Works work. Getting ready for my first international trip with the new gang. Leaving on Saturday for Amsterdam. I think itll be fine. We had a great trip to SoCal last week, so unless someone wigs out, it should be a great experience for all of us. Im still a little freaked out by the fact that I dont have a boss right now, and Im holding my breath a bit waiting to see who they bring in. But again, unnecessary worry = unnecessary time wasted. Why even bother?
The bigger question is: wheres my passport?!
Gotta run for now. Duty beckons.
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