The Mouth that Ate Manhattan in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

  • May 21, 2006, midnight
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Yes, Betsey Johnson did call me a gargoyle. But I think it has a lot to do with just how unbelievably ballsy and mouthy I tend to get when I’m seeking out adventure. That, plus the alcohol. Plus, I was having a bad hair and makeup day, so I guess I get the gargoyle comment (and could the fact that I was talking to Phil across the table, taking the attention away from HER?!). Fine Betsey, you win.

More Me-And-My-Big-Mouth issues:

  • Found out that I said some bizarre things to AtH (aka: Nabe) the last time he took me out. Yes, that was the night he also told me that he wanted to date me, we kissed and kissed and kissed, and then he called the next morning in freak-out mode. Turns out, I told him that I wanted to be married within a year and a half (before 40), and that I wanted to hurry and have kids.

    …um. What?! News to me!

    First of all, yes, everyone knows I’d like to start a relationship and eventually possibly get married. But within a year and ½? I wonder how I thought I was going to do that. And the kid thing? I don’t even really know if I want kids.

    I guess the point is that I spew oddness when I’ve had too much to drink. No wonder he got spooked and ran.

    I clarified these things on Thursday when I saw him. We both decided not to drink so much when we hang out together. We both agreed to remain good nabes and to continue our friendship.

    [Side note: HOWEVER—we both know that sparks fly when we see each other. They just do, and there’s nothing that either one of us can do about it. We have major, major chemistry the likes I haven’t felt in years. I’m just not sure what to do with it at this point. And I have to mention that it’s not just in my head. My new friend from work (needs a name, let’s call her Persephone–I’ll explain later) has met him twice now, and she tells me that it is so obvious that he and I are completely into each other. What to do…what to do?]

  • While meeting with Boss Party Pants in a very informal setting (read: a bar) a couple of weeks ago, I told her that I wanted to direct our department someday in the not-so-distant future. Now granted, this isn’t a bad thing, it’s just something I don’t think I would have normally had the guts to say in certain other circumstances (read: completely sober). She answered by telling me that she has me on a fast track for promotion, and that she is confident in my abilities. Again, all good stuff…but my above point (ie. telling AtH that I wanted to get married soon, Betsey Johnson calling me a gargoyle, etc.) is that things get said under the influence of alcohol that may or may not be exactly on point. Promises are made that might not necessarily be kept—or even remembered!!

    Bottom line is, I gotta figure out how to control my mouth, control my drinking, filter my thoughts, and decipher others’ reactions somehow simultaneously.


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