The Makings of a Thriller in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

  • Aug. 11, 2006, midnight
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I am currently head over heels in love. Do you believe this?! I’ve known the poor sucker for a month now, and here we are spending every moment we can together. It is so frightening and yet so exciting at the same time. But I still have this nagging feeling that any day now it’s all gonna come crashing in around me. Add to the fact that our chemistry is somewhat unstable/volatile (though calm and dreamy right now), and I still have a million questions, and I’m not quite sure how this thing will end up. I will say that I haven’t thrown myself on the floor since the last time I wrote, so I suppose that’s a step in the right direction. In fact, we’ve done nothing but send each other squishy vibes since I last wrote…so I guess the whole “unstable” thing could possibly be in my less-than-stable brain. But still. It’s so bizarre going from what was essentially solitary confinement to practically living with someone. And it doesn’t bother me. I like having him there. Hell…he cooks for me…he cleans up afterwards…and he keeps me very, very happy in the you-know-what department. How can I go wrong?

But here are some examples of the nagging questions I still have and need answered:

  • Your last relationship lasted 12 years. Why didn’t you marry? Or did you? We sort of broached the subject on one of our first dates, and now I can’t remember…and I feel like the statute of limitations on such fundamental information has run out (in other words, I’m embarrassed that I was in a fog of alcohol or something when we discussed this and I’m afraid to ask). But it’s weird. You don’t call her your ex-wife…or even your ex. You refer to her by name.
  • You spent the last 14 years in Europe. Why come to the US now? There’s so much crap going on over here.
  • I googled you and found a profile you’d filled out a few years ago on a website about something you specialize in. You mentioned the town where you lived in Europe, the place where you were born, and the fact that you are living with your “two great kids”…how come you’ve NEVER talked about your kids before? Are they still around?
  • But then again, you’ve never talked about your [estranged] father before until I brought it up last night. I guess I understand that you might not want to bring up touchy subjects like that. You are definitely forthcoming when I do ask questions, so maybe…I should just ask away. Anyway. I want to know more about your family so I can get to know who you are.
  • You changed your last name. You told me why…and I believe you (has to do with above). But add this to some other things, and it sure feels kind of secrety…yet intriguing. I want to know MORE!!

    It’s so funny. [CN], [onegin] and I were talking (over cocktails last week) about how this is the makings for an amazing book/movie: American guy returns to the US after fleeing another country because he’s wanted for murder and espionage (that part is extremely ironic—another story for another time), hooks up with a naive woman on an internet dating site, and seduces her. He lulls her into a false sense of security through his extreme good looks and outrageously perfected lovemaking skills. They spend every free moment together, so her friends assume they are simply in the throes of intense getting-to-know-you sessions and don’t think anything’s wrong—until—someone at work finally wonders why she’s been missing for a few day and realizes that she’s not on a business trip. I don’t want to say how she’s found…because I’m crossing my fingers for a happy ending…


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