Four Months from Forty in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)

  • June 26, 2007, midnight
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Late for work this morning. Some kind of pipeline broke on the street that I take to get out of my downtown neighborhood. I was late in the first place, but the cops were directing everyone in a different direction, and it took me 45 minutes to circumnavigate the surrounding streets before getting to the highway that I take to the office.

The Grrrrr is away at some kind of sales meeting for his company. I like it when he’s away for a couple of days. I can kind of let out my breath and be a bachelorette again. We’re talking the kind of bachelorette who’s never been married and is approaching 40. Yes, the kind who likes to walk around in her skivvies and drink milk out of the carton and make whatever kind of noises she wants without fear of anyone hearing (except for the cat, who’s been around for many, many years and knows allllllll).

And I just realized this: in four months to the day, I’ll be turning forty. Forty!! Anybody watch 40 vs. 20 last night? I half watched while I was making unbelievably yummy steak quesadillas, swilling beer, and folding laundry. Is it me or are the forties so much cooler than the 20s? I’m sure that’s by design, but whoa. And sure, there are some cougar types who make me cringe, but damn…I was kind of embarrassed for the young things.

What should I do for my fortieth birthday? I feel like celebrating!!! I’ve never been in better physical shape. I’m engaged to an amazing guy. I’m really looking forward to the future! I want to do something cool, but not too expensive since I’m vacationing and traveling my ass off basically for the rest of the year (4th of July weekend on a party boat with Lovely and Anna, a combination business/pleasure trip to So. Cal, cruise to Alaska, back to NY, Europe in September, back to Los Angeles in October, Europe in December). So maybe even something that doesn’t involve travel. Hmmmmm.

I KNOW!!! A rooftop party at the loft!! Oh yeah, oh YEAH!!! That would be too much fun!! I’m soooooooooooooooooooooooo excited about this! The Grrrrrr will love it too, since he’s been wanting to have a party (and I’ve been hesitant to host our own engagement party). What a fantastic thought!

Now….for a theme….!!!

So much to do. Will be leaving for a super-duper quick trip to NYC tomorrow after work. So I need to figure out what I’m taking. Gonna try to order Save the Date invitations tonight (Grrrrr wants to get them postmarked on July 6th—the one-year anniversary of our meeting/first date). Don’t think I’m gonna make the deadline, but I’m damn sure gonna try. Gotta clean the loft a little bit (get rid of the evidence of my bachelorettism…crumbs, beer bottles, etc. because Grrrr gets home Thursday night and I’ll still be in NY!). Pack my paperwork while I’m still here at the office. I’m gonna eat sushi solo tonight. Then pack for biz trip. Crazed!! But in a good way.

I’m happy. Sometimes sad (yes, still feel so up and down about the biological children thing—I really should write more about that). Then happy again.


Last updated February 15, 2026


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