Been meaning to write and write and write, but I’m going to be completely honest…this trip was almost the death of me. I so value the alone time on these trips, but this was a different kind of trip, and I was never, ever alone, except when I was asleep (literally!).
Tons of political posturing took place. I have never heard such a concentration of vicious gossip or seen such corporate clawing in my life.
I work for the most cutthroat company–possibly in the world. You wouldn’t expect it from the company I work for, but it is so much like The Devil Wears Prada it’s not even funny. I really should write more about work because the stories are unbelievable. But I’ve been afraid because I was writing a lot from work.
I am in London right now. The trip began September 9th. I’ve now been to Boston, New York, Amsterdam, Stockholm, Berlin, Paris and now London. Don’t get me wrong, I do love the travel. But so many cities in so few days and there are bound to be snafus…and there were.
But today. OH TODAY!! This is my last day, and it’s Sunday, so we’re making it an easy day (yes, we work on the weekends when we travel). I’m not meeting Boss until 11:00, and we are going to have brunch! Then we are going to finish the stuff we need to finish and then possibly go to the Victoria and Albert museum. Follow up with a mellow dinner (our last three nights have been the most obnoxious–20 drunken executives in Paris and London), and then to bed early (I hope!) and a plane ride home tomorrow.
I have been thinking about a lot of things during this trip: my career, this particular job that I have (it’s a risky one), my relationship with Grrrr, etc. I know there has to be a way to parlay a lot more happiness into my life. It’s not that I’m sad…I’m just not quite “there”…ya know? I know life’s sometimes a struggle, but I want to turn it into more of a satisfying journey. So many people I’ve dealt with on this trip seem to have it ALL. I know there are issues with everyone, but I can’t quite figure out how they’ve accomplished so MUCH! While I struggle with a relationship on one side and my career on the other and thoughts of having kids and travel and a house and on and on it goes.
I’m anxious ALL THE TIME. It’s not just the Grrrr thing…that’s been top of mind when I have been writing lately. It’s EVERYTHING. I’m seriously considering finding out about a little pharmaceutical help. I don’t know. I have to do something.
Oh wow. Didn’t really mean to go there. I need to get ready now for the final day of this trip.
When you think about it, really, there are so many things to be thrilled about today:
–the weather in London is SPECTACULAR!
–I have been healthy during this trip–lots of walking
–I ate the most delicious lobster last night
–I’ll be back with my Grrrrrr tomorrow!
–I’ll get to squeeze my sweet T (kitty)
–this part will be done
P.S. I didn’t get to have one of these while in Amsterdam, but I sure wanted to try! Perhaps Mole will have a chance?
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