I went to an amazing party once while I was in high school. It was held at the home of some kids in my school, a brother and sister. The house was gigantic and on the property of a private country club that their father owned. There were kegs of beer and lots of food and dancing and beautiful kids and fun! There were kids from other schools there too, as they had attended another school in the area before transferring to my HS.
I spotted a guy across the room and he found my eyes with his own and they locked!! Before I knew it, we were talking and having a great time and…wouldn’t you know it, we were soon kissing! I felt like I was in a John Hughes film and could actually hear the soundtrack playing in the background and everything!
He invited me to another party. I really wanted to go, but I wanted to go talk to my girlfriends first. So I left him, but told him not to go without me.
I went to the other side of the party where my friends were and started telling them alllllllll about the gorgeous guy I’d just made out with and that I wanted to go to this other party and…
All of a sudden, there was ANOTHER guy in the picture! Even more attractive than the first, and I was dizzy with the thought of having TWO interested guys at one party (you have to know that I was a complete DORK in high school, very awkward and gangly and geeky for the most part–but I did have my moments and this was definitely one of them!)!!
Add beer and perhaps some other drinks and maybe even a leeeeetle bit of pot to the mix, and I was completely intoxicated with loooooovvvee!
I was mesmerized with Guy #2 and quickly found myself deep in conversation that led quickly to his tongue deep in my mouth! What kind of dream was this! I was in adolescent HEAVEN!!!
But the moment I came up for air and realized what was going on, I took a few blinks and realized that Guy #1 was looking right at me!
I didn’t quite know how to handle the situation, so I excused myself to go talk with Guy #1 and ask him for directions to the other party because I was still interested in going. I thought.
I broke away from Guy #2, and in the time it took me to make my way across the room and back to Guy #1, he was already gone!
I shrugged my shoulders and didn’t think it was a big deal because, after all, I still had Guy #2 waiting in the wings, didn’t I? And he was even BETTER than the first guy, right??
So I waded back through the crowd. Back to the other side of the room. Back to my TRUE LOOOOVVVVEEE! I was trembling with expectation at that point!
And sure enough, by the time I made it back to THAT side of the room, Guy #2 was gone, gone, GONE!!!
Does history always have to fucking repeat itself? I feel like that girl in high school again. And I think I’m actually getting the exact same results!
I’ve written off TMG. He has shown his true colors in the face of difficult or awkward situations time and time again. And those cutting remarks are just too much. When it comes right down to it, he is mean, mean, MEAN! His motives are not on the level, and as much as I loved having him there to pick me up when I needed it, it is clearly not that he is being my friend. He is a manipulative, sexist (yes, [AMo]!), pushy, untruthful jerk.
And then there’s K., who thinks he saw me kissing Guy #1 at the party…when I really wasn’t! But who cares, because from his perspective I was. And I guess I might as well have been because I’m sure that it really did sound like it from the way I fumbled around with my explanation of what was going on between TMG and me.
Regardless, I’m pretty sure they’ve both left the party.
K. told me yesterday (via f-ing TEXT) that he didn’t want me to lose my friendship with TMG on his account. And I sent a text back saying if it wasn’t him (K.), it was bound to be someone else and that TMG’s friendship came with too high a price tag.
I went on to TEXT him that I wanted to keep seeing him, but that I would understand if I’ve been a bit too much DRAMA lately.
No answer back.
So, I think it’s time to leave this kegger and hang out with my girlfriends again for a while.
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