I have a few minutes to update. Don’t know if I’ll get to all of my bullet points in the placeholder entry before this, but that’s okay.
I got a little bit of a call for help from K. yesterday. Seems he’s on the verge of a breakdown of sorts. He’d been avoiding me for days, and I had a feeling that he was up to something or had met someone else to *ahem* buddy around with or whatever.
He finally sent me a text on Saturday night telling me that he was just getting in from Friday (possibly Thursday?). I basically told him that I really didn’t want to know why.
Of course, I found out eventually.
It appears that he went on a bender and hit some kind of bottom (though, I don’t think it is rock bottom–he just doesn’t seem like it), and decided to try to work on himself.
He told me that he was going to be in my neighborhood and asked if I was interested in a visitor. I really didn’t want him getting all comfortable at my place (because it makes me uncomfortable for some reason), so I asked him to meet me at the coffee shop downstairs.
He’d just attended an AA meeting with a woman that he does business with, and I guess that was all fine and well, but I have a feeling that he doesn’t want to stop drinking. Told me he was doing a 30-day detox and blah blah blah. I know that I’m sounding very cynical, but I just don’t think the guy has much willpower. Perhaps he’ll prove me wrong, but I don’t have tons of faith in him.
Of course, I’m certainly not turning my back on the guy, but I’m also certainly not going to be his LOVER right now. Besides, he doesn’t need a lover (at least not in me), he’ll get a friend. I’ll do as much as I can to help him. I know he just wanted an ear last night.
Why am I bothered by this? I guess some of it has to do with the fact that I sat him down a couple of weeks ago and had a VERY frank discussion with him regarding my feelings and how the alcohol was getting in the way of things and it was troubling me. In fact, I was proud of myself for talking with him the way that I did. I was kind yet firm–you know I sometimes have a hard time being firm with people in general (especially men).
And what did he do? Right. He basically nodded his head and said, “Point taken.”
And proceeded to pretty much disregard any and all of my feelings and THROW down with the booze and probably whatever else he could shove down his gullet.
We’ll see how this goes. Again, I told him that he has a friend in me and if he needs an ear I’m here. But…
Job search is starting to get downright annoying. I know it’s time for a new approach. I’m really enjoying writing in my new blog, but now I need to develop the entries so that they are a little more strategic.
I got an invitation through my state’s workforce commission to take part in a webinar this morning that was about taking charge of your life and job search during difficult times.
I was actually quite inspired by it, and if I can angle it correctly, I may be able to start focusing my blog entries more on the needs of several different end users:
[note: I know that most reading this are going to say DUUUUHHHHHH to what I have to say below, but I’m just outlining very generally here, and it only helps to reinforce my thoughts]
1. Your average everyday person who might be kind of interested in fashion (but is not necessarily fashionista).
2. Manufacturers of fashion items–what’s hot/emerging and what to watch out for. The terms don’t have to be too technical so that I can keep the interest of the everyday person. The technical stuff will be done on a contract basis separate from the blog, but the blog can be used as a supplement/enhancement tool.
2. Retailers who need to figure out what to buy. Again, the supplemental stuff and recommendations will be tailored to the individual customer.
Yes, that’s essentially what I did in my last job, but I need to give it some kind of twist and I’m trying to figure out how to give it a super-compelling twist. My “style” is not for everyone–I’m not ultra edgy or wildly crazy, but I think I have a good handle on what will sell. And when I say sell, I mean in the millions of $$$$$ arena.
I keep telling myself I need to focus, but perhaps that’s not really what I need to do. Perhaps I need to take more of a shotgun approach and see what I hit??
I know, I was going to write allllllll about this working out stuff, weight loss (or simply getting back in shape) and my whole body image/sex/love thing, but I think I’m going to have to save that for another entry because I’m just not feeling it today.
Yeah, I did go to the gym, but even the instructor today was fairly easy on us and I didn’t work up my usual amount of sweat.
What I AM going to do, however, is put on something that makes me feel pretty/sexy and meet Chrisie and Lovely this evening for one (1) glass of wine. Chrisie’s in town for…something. I’m not sure what. And I haven’t seen Lovely since New Orleans, so. It’s time to get out of the house for an evening.
Okay. I just wrote this long diatribe about wanting routine again–something that I feel fantastically satisfied with, and I erased it. It was just annoying. I know what I need to do to get the life that I want, so it’s time to just start doing it.
Kinda like something that [AMo] talks about in her diary. Don’t write about what you are going to do, write about what you DID!!
Better go. It’s a stunningly beautiful FALL day outside, and you know what they say:
Don’t waste the pretty!!!
Or in K’s case, don’t get wasted, pretty!!!
Something like that.
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