Hrmph. Happy Monday. Some of the annoyances haven’t gone away, but I know they are my own doing.
Yesterday, after church, K. asked me if I wanted to go to brunch. And I did. I wanted to hear all about his event and talk about some other things, so it was a perfect opportunity, and such a beautiful day. We decided to go to a French place and sit on the patio. I’m so happy we did that.
And THEN, we decided that we wanted to spend even more time together (really enjoying ourselves!), so he invited me to see a designer collection at one of his client’s galleries. And that was fantastic! We were even befriended by a docent who decided that he wanted to take us (more like talk us) through a very cool sculpture garden that was a part of the large complex where we were. We had so much fun!
But too much K. makes me antsy for some reason, and I decided to go home after that and try to get some stuff done.
Didn’t get too far when K. sent a text asking me if I’d like for him to bring over fixings to make a pizza and if I wanted to watch football with him. Well, I didn’t really want to watch football necessarily, but I did enjoy his company earlier, and he is such a phenomenal cook…
I hesitated a bit, but then agreed.
And then I almost immediately regretted my decision. I don’t know why, but I just get so annoyed when he’s in my space. Not only that, he always overstays his welcome. But I’m obviously not effective in communicating that fact.
So. I didn’t get my stuff done and now I’m jumpy and concerned that I’m a terrible communicator.
And the really weird thing? K. seems to enjoy it when I get really sassy and kind of snippy with him. I don’t get it.
Perhaps I’ll never get it.
Frustration is a bitch.
So my morning entry is obviously a little late this morning. But the good news is that I’ve accomplished some things this morning. Followed up with three different companies (two of them being the companies I’ve already written about, and one of them is a newcomer on the scene). And I’m working with someone regarding my living situation in the coming weeks…much, much more to follow that situation soon.
I hate being nervous and jumpy. But I also know from history that it means I’m aware that a change (big change) is necessary and is already underway. It’s gonna be another biggie, people. So watch out!
Oh, and yes, to answer some comments about yesterday’s entry:
1. Yes, my building has 5 elevators. It used to be a gigantic distribution center for a big ol’ retail store.
2. Regarding my old company: I feel like I’m finally starting to heal. It was like a very bad, horrible break-up, and I’m trying so hard not to be bitter. My best reward will be when I get that job that rocks so very, very HARD!
Scene along my walk to church yesterday.
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