PIC OF THE DAY!
Photo prompt: SHADOW SELF-PORTRAIT. Here I am this afternoon. Looonnng shadow. It was a gorgeous day!
TODAY…
1. Thankful that I got [AMo]’s Christmas CD this afternoon! Joy!
2. Thankful that I’ve found someone that I love just hanging out with.
3. The gorgeous weather and driving with the top down–nothing like fresh air and sunshine!
4. Thankful for a wonderful weekend!
5. So thankful that I’m really looking forward to a shiny new year.
Okay, you guys. [AMo]’s CD came in the mail today, and I’m so happy! Thank you, [Adriana]. You just made my day, and I’m listening with my new Klipsch noise-canceling ear buds that Santa brought me.
Seriously, I’m so full of joy for some reason today. I think it’s a combination of it being such a beautiful day (was driving around with my top down this afternoon), smiling people everywhere, good music, and the fact that I had such a rockin’ make-out session last night with CC.
Yeah, I’m not sure either. But the guy is really growing on me, and I truly enjoy his company, as I know he does mine. We are just so cool hanging out and talking. I’m so comfortable with him, and that’s a great thing.
The attraction thing? It’s weird. Because I’m sort of there and sort of not, but I’ll tell you something: I finally just relaxed and let him kiss me last night. And kiss me and kiss me and kiss me. That shit was goooooood. Really, really good. Almost scary good because it made me want to do other things.
Didn’t hurt that I dreamt about kissing him while I was taking a nap yesterday afternoon. So of course, I had kissing on the brain already when I went over there.
The good thing is that he knows that I want to take it (whatever it is) very slowly. Like, I am SO not ready to fall into bed. I never said that, but I’m giving those vibes, I’m sure. And last night he told me that he didn’t care if it took us 6 weeks or 6 months–just that he enjoys my company and that I’m the first person he’s met since his divorce that he’s been truly interested in for something more than sex. That’s about the third time he’s told me that, so I’m starting to believe it. Sort of.
I do get a tad bit of the heebs when I think about his slutty bachelor days that aren’t so long ago, and I wonder if he’s truly had his fill. I mean, he has since divulged more of his recent history, and it just fills my mind with all kinds of thoughts of orgies and young thangs and debauchery. Any guys out there want to comment on this?
And man. I can just tell that when we DO end up doing it (because I have a feeling that we eventually will…), it’s going to be insanely explosive (I can just feel it.), and I’m going to get all girly and swirly and neurotic all over the place. I just want to figure out how to avoid all that.
He already knows the potential is there. We’ve already discussed it. He knows exactly where I stand about sex, involvement, commitment, exclusivity, marriage, etc. etc. issues.
Yes, I realize that I’m waaaaay ahead of myself. It was only like a week and a half ago when I had the “friends” conversation with him and pretty much blew him off. I’m not sure what happened to change my tune, but I can feel it changing even more as I type this out.
Hm.
Regardless. Bottom line? The kissing is delicious. More, please.
Heh. I don’t know when I’m going to see him again. I haven’t heard from him all day, either. I kept him up too late again. So I’m backing waaaaay off.
Tomorrow I will really start getting my shit together. The loft is a shambles because I have halted the packing process mid-stream. There are so many things that need to be done, and I’m thinking about having a small celebratory get-together for my lease extension. My dad’s b-day is the 10th of January, so I’m thinking right around then.
Tomorrow I’m having lunch with a girl I used to work with who’s now working for a company here in town that I’m targeting. I can’t wait to see her.
Tomorrow is going to be the start of a really fantastic week. I can feel it!
So tonight I’m just going to relax and hang out and bask in the glow of a post late-night super sexy make out session.
*aaaahhhhh*
Love you!
*Edit: CC called after I finished this entry. He’s taking his daughters (ages 18, 15, 13) to sushi and then to the theater tonight. Those girls are very lucky. They have an extremely doting dad who gives them the finest of everything. He wants to see me on Tuesday. I just thought of this too, he’s given me the finest of everything since we’ve met as well.
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