I don’t have time to write a REAL entry because I’m running to meet someone for a cocktail. Just want to say a couple of things for posterity.
CC took me out on an amazing date on Tuesday night to celebrate my new job. VERY expensive bottle of Rose Champagne…VERY expensive dinner. We had a fabulous meal, but at the end of dinner, he mentioned something about there being something about me that might actually be a dealbreaker. So of course, I was all curious and kind of freaking out. He then told me that he didn’t want to tell me. So then I was even MORE freaked out. We went back to his place, where he’d led me to believe that we were going to have a nice romantic time, but he was NOT into romancing me. Finally, reluctantly, he told me about something that bothered him about….well, about something intimate. I was shocked. SHOCKED. And my feelings were hurt, and….well, frankly this relationship or whatever is really starting to wear me down. Still, we have a date for tomorrow night. I don’t get it! I don’t know what to do. He likes me. But not everything about me. I like him. But then again, I don’t. What do I do? Do I just drag it out until it gets ugly? It’s already kinda gotten ugly. But then sometimes I see a future. How can I be so wishy-washy?
Work is going to be VERY challenging. I knew it going in. I have a very nice boss, but I feel a little twinge of the kook factor. I will expound in later entries, I’m sure. I HAVE to make sure that I learned from my past mistakes here. I can tell she wants to get personal with me, and I can’t….CAN’T let her get to me. I am going to do the best job I can possibly do. I’m super excited about it. I should be ready for this challenge. But oh boy, do I smell a challenge.
I need to go because I promised a guy (a guy I’ve seen before and blew off previously) I’d meet him at the dive bar around the corner in like 15 minutes. I’m not even dressed.
I’ve missed you! I adore you!
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