PIC OF THE DAY!
Long way down.
TODAY…
1. Thankful for a brand new day.
2. Thankful for a brand new day.
3. Thankful for a brand new day.
4. Thankful for a brand new day.
5. Thankful for a brand new day.
Let’s start over, shall we?
I don’t know why I get that way. It’s not literally light out yet, but everything just seems better after a decent night’s sleep in the light of day, doesn’t it?
Maybe it’s the jitter pillz that make me jumpy about what’s going on with my funny little romance right now. I can only take one every other day as they really do a number on my system.
Whatever it is, I feel better and stronger this morning. I talked to SexyPants last night and we didn’t have long to talk as he was at a BBQ with the “boys” (his work guys), and he is the boss and has to be a bad-ass, I guess. It was very nice of him to take a break from the fun and check in with me, and I’m pretty sure he could feel my insecurity.
But tonight when I pick him up at the airport I vow not to be a nervous little girl. I mean, we are equals in this and I really feel that way when we spend time together.
I do love that he is a powerful businessman. Such a turn-on, and really, a first for me (if you don’t count CC who refused to be my boyfriend). Especially because I feel like an equal when we’re together. Makes me feel equally powerful. Really! Is that weird?
So why the insecurity when we’re not together?
I don’t know, stop dwelling on it, will ya?
Stop staring at me!!
Heh.
Today will be a very busy day at work, and I like it that way. Lots to do! I just love getting things done there because every little bit shows. I haven’t written about it, I guess because I’ve been so busy at work and so drained when I’ve gotten home lately, but it’s been pretty high-drama at the office lately.
I know, I know, it’s the wedding business, it’s supposed to be wild, right? But it’s really much more than that. It’s the process and the players and it’s a very high stress job.
Everybody wants to ruffle feathers and make themselves look valuable, but at the end of the day, this is the business that I’ve been charged with running, and I love (and sometimes hate) the feeling of being in charge of it ALL.
I’ve been assigned a mentor at work. She’s a very interesting Chinese woman. It’s strange, because I thought she was much older and wiser than me (looks and acts that way), but in our last meeting, I found out that she’s 40! Whaaaaaat? I seriously thought that she was at least 50!! How weird is that? Getting a mentor who is younger?
But my peers in my position area mainly in their 30s, so I guess it makes sense. Most people don’t know that I’m *gasp* forty-three years old. And sometimes I’m proud of that fact (that they don’t know or that they consider me a part of this group), but when it comes to position and level at work, I feel very much behind.
I really should be a VP if you look at age. At least a director!!
I’m working on it, folks. But if I don’t get up, get moving and get OUT OF HERE, I’m never gonna make it.
On that note, onward, upward, and outward!! No nervousness today!! Today’s the day I get out there, take charge of my business, my mindset about my relationship, MY LIFE!!!
Yeah! Love you more than diamonds and gold and a power dinner with the worlds top executives!!
(and chocolate-covered almonds)
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