Today is a weird day. I cant seem to get anything done at work unless I write an entry, so I guess to alleviate that Im going to get one out. Lets see if this works.
I know Ive left a million details of my life out lately as I skim through how fabulous my relationship is and how busy I am at work. You know that sounds all nice and pretty, and I guess in reality I havent really had time to sit down and process things.
Here are some things that have been on my mind lately:
I havent nurtured my relationships with my girlfriends lately. I feel like a jack-ass about it. I want to say that there hasnt been any time to do that, but we all know thats a cop-out. I need to get back in touch with my girlies. I have now been dating SexyPants for a year (well, in two weeks it will be a year), and Ive slowly but surely gotten out of touch with my girls. I think its time to plan either (1) a girls night out, (2) a party at my placewhere I rarely stay anymore, (3) dinner/night out on a one-on-one basis. I do know that Best Bud will be coming in town this weekend, so Im really looking forward to that
The Sitch (aka. SexyPantss adopted 15-year-old, troubled, special-needs kid). Yes, Im sure it sounds like an insensitive name, but I dont mean for it to be. Im not going to change his name for some loser who keeps making fake diaries so that they can leave anonynotes here. He really is and has a lot of personality issues, medical issues and disabilities that make for a situation. He knows it. We all can talk about it and even joke about it. We are all very open and honest about our feelings and concerns. It is NOT the elephant in the room. HE is not the elephant in the room. But seriously, living with him is something I didnt sign up for when SexyPants and I made the decision to become serious. Many, many, many things have changed, and I feel like Im doing a pretty good job of being flexible and remaining open-minded. Likewise, The Sitch is being open, somewhat flexible and is a pretty good kid right now. And also, this living situation is temporary while he waits for a space at another institution to have a space for him. SexyPants thinks it will be at the end of August. Meanwhile, Im striving to be a decent role-model, friend and maybe even eventually a step-parent. I have high hopes, but Im also trying to be realistic. The Sitch has a long, long way to go. He has a history of episodes that include violence and needing to be restrained. His is much bigger than I am and even bigger than his dad.
SexyPants. Wow, has that man taken a beating the last few months. First, the kid issues. He is trying for full custody of The Sitch, while his 17-year-old daughter remains estranged despite the fact that SexyPants tries over and over to communicate with
and be a father to her. What a heartbreaking thing. I could go on and on with stories about how SPs ex-wife is enabling such shitty behavior, but its just ugly and I dont want to get into it right now. Next, his medical issues
I guess Ive left out the parts where we had to go to the emergency room after his kidney stone surgeryTWICE! Another long story. And then theres the fact that he quit his last job and has started some new projects, all while trying to take care of his kid full-time AND is traveling right now. I dont know how he keeps it up, but I do know that he remains such a caring, loving and patient man. I adore him. I want to keep him happy and love and support him for the rest of our lives. I hope that we are able to do this with each other. I know I will do everything in my power to do my part.
OK
well, theres more, but I need to go to a meeting. Ill post this for now and see what I can get out later.
Love and more LOVE!
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