I’ve been absent. I took the whole thing private, thinking I was going to write more and get it out privately, but I haven’t even done that. Things are…interesting. To say the least.
But I miss this place. I need to write here. So many of my absolute favorite people from here have contacted me to see what is going on and that’s why I love it here. It’s not just a place to vent, but I’ve found true, caring people here. I want to thank you again and again and again.
So, here’s what’s happening.
– Work. Work is insane and it’s all so boring to write about and you don’t want to hear it. The only good (really great, actually) thing that’s happened is that I got an old boss of mine from my last company to come to work here as a peer of mine!! Yes, that part is fantastic, and I thank her every day for being here because we get to talk every morning before we go on our hectic ways. AND!!! I got a $1500 referral bonus! So, while insane, having a paycheck and bonuses like that make it worthwhile. Believe me, I’m THRILLED to have this job. And I’m even more thrilled to have an in-house sounding board here at the office.
– Travel. Also, for work, I’m getting ready for another Asia trip. This time Taiwan and China. Looking forward to getting away again. NOT looking forward to the insane, INSANE driving that they do over there. I’m hoping to take the high speed train through certain parts of Southern China so that I don’t have to endure…um…WRONG WAY drivers on the freeway in rush hour!!! Yes, last trip I had a driver who did exactly that! I don’t think I wrote about it. I don’t know why I don’t write more. I guess after I spend time posting pix on facebook, I’m out of energy.
– Love. I love my SexyPants so very, very much. We celebrated our One Year Anniversary last week. Can you believe we met a year ago? I never imagined getting so far with him, and yet…we have a ways to go. We talk about forever–a lot. And yet, there is only one reason I’m unsure about forever…
– Son of Love. My boyfriend’s son. Because of the issue of my politically incorrectness on my last few entries, let’s call him SOS (Son of SexyPants) from here on out. How’s that? Better? Good. He’s been out of one institution and on the waiting list of another for the last 6 weeks. It’s been somewhat fine, yet he’s in this no-mans-land until he goes to a new treatment facility in September after Labor Day. I was practically living with SexyPants when SOS came to stay, and of course, my worst fear came true last week when he had a major meltdown which had me terrified for SexyPant’s safety and it was recommended that I leave. Long, long story, but I am back to staying in my loft…at least until after SOS goes back to the treatment facility. This is at my own insistence. Both SexyPants and SOS have asked me to come back, but I am insisting on staying put in my loft until he gets the treatment that he needs. That’s not to say I do not see them at all. I visit and we hang out and go to dinners, etc., I’m just not sleeping on the premises. Where we go from here? I don’t yet know. I can only hope that he will be getting better and better there. I can’t watch another scary scene like that play out in front of me.
– Me. I don’t know. I feel like I need to get back on my A-Game. You know? I feel like I’m living day-to-day, not really making much progress. I was getting in really good shape there for a while, but I’ve kinda let that go with the stress and the stuff. I know that working out helps tremendously, but the only time I have to work out is in the mornings, and I’ve been using my mornings to get as much sleep as I possibly can lately. I’ve been smoking again (UGHHH!!!). I haven’t been writing down my feelings. I’ve been drinking as much as I can get my hands on (not literally, but a glass or two every stinking evening). I don’t feel centered. I feel so lucky to have a boyfriend and a great job and yet… nothing worth having is ever easy, right?
All I know is that I love you and I’ve missed you and I want to be the best person I can be. It’s the story of my life. It’s the one constant.
I’ll be back, but I must finish a million things at work.
OH! Having dinner with Cindy tonight. That’s a good! : )
Ever and ever,
Ginger
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