About an hour and a half after I wrote my last entry, SexyPants called. Well, facetimed (which I love). He told me that he’d had a really emotional weekend, and that he hadn’t been sleeping becuase he’d been thinking about too many things.
I told him that I could feel it allll the way on the other side of the world and that I was having some feelings of my own.
And the flood gates opened.
It wasn’t tearful or anything like that–just me expressing my disappointment and SexyPants expressing his being overwhelmed with things, but reassuring me that he wasn’t putting me on the back burner at all…in fact, he spent a good portion of the weekend getting advice from his best friend about all the things going on in his life. Told me how disappointed he was in himself for not being able to pull off Shanghai. Told me about the guilt over the possibility of not being able to attend his first status session regarding his son (which would have fallen during the time he would have been in Shanghai with me). Told me about how he felt about his health.
And then. He told me that he’d had some epiphanies about US over the weekend. He told me that he doesn’t want to wait until things change (son, health status, buying a new house, etc) to take our relationship to the next level. He told me that with the exception of giving me a child, he could give me EVERYTHING that I want. He stopped just short of asking me to marry him. And then he said that he wants that to be a surprise.
I was …floored.
It was not really what I was expecting. It was really a whole lot more. I have never, ever pushed him for marriage. And yet, I guess that’s what he wanted to tell me: that he’s had some time to think about everything going on in his life and that he wants me to be by his side.
I felt a lot of relief. I know what he was trying to do was to explain why he’d been a bit distant and to let me know that he’s been really, REALLY putting a lot of thought into everything that’s going on in his life.
And yes, of course I felt the twinge of excitement over the prospect of a proposal!!!!!
Still, there was the tiniest, teeniest twinge of the thought of the fact that talk of a ring and a proposal were not what I was really digging for, you know? It’s the being together part which was what I really, REALLY wanted.
And then he asked me if I would go away with him next month on the weekend of my birthday. THERE IT WAS!! The romantic getaway!!! YES!
I’m feeling much, much better about us today. In fact, he asked me for my itinerary so that he could call American Airlines for me to see if he could arrange for me to come home those two extra days. I haven’t heard back from him yet, but it’s just the thought that he would ASK if he could do that for me.. *swoon*
I love that man. He’s put a lot on himself lately.
And you guys, AlL of your notes were dead-on.
I love you.
Maybe next entry I’ll talk about work stuff. Oh so much to tell!! Just wanted to get that out because I’m really so happy right now.
XOXO,
Ginger
*BIG EDIT!! SexyPants just called me to tell me that not only was he able to change my ticket to come back two days earlier, but he is meeting me in Los Angeles (where I’m laying over) and flying back the last leg with me! I love him X 1,000,000. Love. Love. LOVE!
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