What a weird week. I want to write and write and write.
Work is still odd. I probably shouldn’t write about work while at work, but…eh.
Krab Kakes Kontinues to bring me down. It’s so strange. We are not even half as busy and drowning like I was this time last year (without her), and yet she breaks down in tears and complains about EVERYTHING! Yesterday she told me that she dreamed that her old boss called her from her other company and told her that she should update her resume. I said, “Do it!”
I’ve got to figure out a way to not let her get to me. She was, is, and will always be a negative force, and I’m afraid sometimes that I fall into her trap. She wants me to commiserate, and I do just to make her feel better, but sometimes I start to actually feel this “pain” that she feels. It’s ugly, and I actually resent that. I let myself fall into this bullsh. I don’t like it. I must change it.
Do you know that I’m still so thankful to have this job? Do you remember my 10-month unemployment stint? Yeah. I do thank my lucky stars every morning when I roll up in here, however, I also do feel that stagnant feeling. It’s time to up my game here. I think I’m very much ready to change the scenery around here.
Here are some of the steps that I’m thinking about:
1. Get “in” better with my boss. Now here’s the deal. I don’t think I’ve written too much about my latest boss, Mr. Gossip Queen. See, Mr. GQ wants nothing more than to dig dirt outta his peeps. This is #1 on my no-no list, but he still manages to squeak little tidbits out of me here and there. Yuck. Every once in a while I have to throw him a tiny bone, or he gets ugly. I should share with you the email he sent to me a day before I left on my last China trip (but that’s another entry for another time). Basically, it was him being all prissy-pissy about something that somebody OVERHEARD about me. Still, I need to somehow make him a special ally because I need his buy-in on getting me promoted or at least refresh my current position.
2. Change my scenery. This starts with my own space here at work. I surround myself with my work – literally. I have all the stuff I need to do my job within reach. I get boxes and boxes in from overseas every day. Things have piled out of control, and it appears that I’m not organized when I know where everything is. HOWEVER, perception is everything, isn’t it? Organize!!
3. Spearhead a new project. AKA Cause a Scene. This is how to get noticed in my company. You have to take a stand about something and then basically make yourself the head of a committee. In previous months, I have been much too swamped and busy on another committee (which is broken and I kinda want out of), but there are a couple of projects that I’ve been thinking about taking on that might make a difference around here and get some NOTICE. It’s funny how the bullies in this company seem to get themselves promoted. I’m not necessarily thinking of bullying my way in, but I do want to make some noise around here. I’m tired of not really being noticed simply because my nose is to the grindstone. It’s time to make a splash!
OK. That’s enough for today. That’s plenty to get started with. I can start a couple of things immediately and then try to ease my way into the others.
Guess what? It’s Friday! What are your plans for the weekend?
I’m planning on being as active as I can be. I’ve started a walking/running regimine on the weekends that I’ve fallen in LOVE with (as long as we can get ourselves up early enough).
On Saturday mornings at somewhere between 6:30 and 7am, SexyPants and I take a walk around City Lake. This is a 9-mile walk, and usually takes us between 2 1/2 to 3 hours to finish. It’s an AWESOME walk because we always find such great things to talk about OR we listen to Radiolab together OR we have friends who walk with us and gab while we walk. This is our “lazy” day and usually requires a nap during the hottest part of the afternoon to get over the walk.
Then on Sunday mornings, SP and I get up around the same time and do the same City Lake, this time RUNNING!! I have finally gotten back up to speed enough so that I can slllowly run the full 9 miles. I’m not fast, so it takes me about an hour and 45 minutes, but what a great workout! It feels like such an acomplishment when we’re done.
Still, this is obviously not enough with regards to my weight. I say this because I cannot fit into ANY of my jeans. Not a single pair. I am so disgusted with my ass/thighs/belly. I know what it is, and I need to buck up and get my willpower back up to par. I swear, I will NOT buy any new fall clothes are are a single size bigger than the things that are currently in my closet. This has gotten ridiculous and I’ve had enough.
Ahem. Where was I? The weekend. Tonight, SP and I are planning on going to some movie that he heard about on the radio. I forget the name and even the premise, but I do remember being interested at the time. Scary, my memory of late. I guess this is why I need to be back to writing things down!
Tomorrow, walking and then I need to get a housewarming gift for Lovely Leah (while SP goes to visit SOS at the Mental Hospital). We are having dinner at LL’s new house with another couple we’ve never met. I’m looking forward to it as I haven’t seen Lovely in probably 6 months or so.
Sunday, running then church, then brunch as always. Then…not sure what else. Probably a rest in there. Prepping for the weekend following as I’m going to go to a football game with SP in his hometown. Gotta see his family for the first time since “the discovery”. I’m not sure how I’m feeling about that yet. Wow.
OK! Enough writing. Time to get a move-on!
I love you!!
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