Happy Monday!
I woke up smiling and laughing, just like I do almost every time I wake with SP. And he notices and thanks me for waking up happy, just like he always does. He brings me coffee. He snuggles. He loves me. I have never felt it like this with anyone else. Though I am still wary and sometimes I worry that we will get comfortable and he will fall back into those ways, he has never ceased to make me feel like the most special person on the planet. I can’t get over it. We are doing something right together, and I can’t really pinpoint it. We just…fit.
Of course I question it almost daily now. In fact, I torture myself sometimes. But this I know: I am giving this a second chance. There are many reasons for this and someday I may get into it.
I can and will live without him if necessary. I know I would survive. I know I would be a strong person who would make new friends and strengthen old friendships and even fall in love again.
But right now what we have makes me genuinely happy. It’s that JOY that I wrote about a week or so ago. I feel JOY and I wake up happy.
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