Ugh. I know you’ve heard this all before and are tired of hearing me whine, but I am simply disgusted with myself for letting me get back to this very uncomfortable weight. And yes, by all standards my weight is “normal” for someone my age/height, etc. But I am SO unhappy with myself. It is such hard work to get in great shape and to wear clothes well, but I’ve been there several times and have always promised myself never to go back to….well, THIS.
Dammit.
And I know it’s going to take time, but I am just so frustrated right now. I’m not being lazy and I haven’t screwed up my diet at all. In fact, I haven’t had any alcohol or grains or sweets or any of that. I’ve gotten good exercise. I’m doing everything right. I will just have to keep on doing what I’m doing. I mean, when all is said and done, I know I’m expending many more calories than I’m taking in. It just might take a little while to show.
Even more frustration, I have promised myself for almost a whole year now that I won’t buy any new clothes until I can fit WELL in my current clothes. This means *gasp* outdated clothing! Of course, accessories don’t count, so as you can imagine I’m just updating with shoes, scarves and jewelry. But there’s only so much I can do.
Scrubbed the bathroom today and decided it’s time for a change in there. I was doing kind of a silvery-gray motif in there with modern mirrors and all that. But the gray stuff is just not doing the trick. Some product that I use (actually, probably more than one product) has bleached out my towels in many spots. I’m thinking pure, fresh spa-like white will do the trick. Then I have to make sure that I keep everything pristine!!
And in the not-so-pristine department, I spent a good deal of time researching how to keep the cat from pooping on the living room rug (which he has now taken over as his favorite pooping ground). Apparently, once a cat starts doing that, it’s hard to shake. However, one of the recommended methods mentions covering the rug/area with saran wrap or aluminum foil. I didn’t have enough foil, but I have now wrapped the entire living room rug in saran wrap!! Can you imagine? I mean, the rug is toast. I’m going to have to buy a new one anyway because of all the ground-in shit that I haven’t been able to scrub out, but I just want to see if it really keeps Ol’ Guy from using it as a litter box. I’m thinking that if this method truly works, I will keep the yucky rug for a little while longer just to keep him in the habit of going strictly in the box. Either that, or I will just toss the rug and wait a while until I’m absolutely sure he’s over the rug-pooping habit before I buy a new one.
Sorry for all the poop talk. It’s probably as bad as reading about potty training a toddler, but there you go. I don’t have a toddler, but I do have a poo machine. Whee.
SexyPants is on his way back from his whirlwind weekend with his fam. SOOOO glad I didn’t go, as SP called me this morning to tell me of the frustrations he was having with his mom. He’s a momma’s boy so to hear him do a little complaining means that it would have been kind of uncomfortable had I gone in the first place. I am so happy to stay out of it, though I do get a kick out of his sister and BIL. Would have been fun to see them. Oh well.
I also hope that by not going I drove some messages home to him about sticking to my word. I will not waiver from the fact that I MUST be in a place where I feel safe. There’s a lot more to say about that, but I will probably continue to document in private entries.
Anyway. Monday is almost here again. I haven’t gotten a lot done in the research department for this possible new gig. I have done some chicken scratch thoughts about how to pull together a quick presentation for potential new boss, however it’s nothing too solid or impressive. I hope that I will be able to flesh some things out in the coming days.
I’ve also gotta focus on my current position. I mean, they are still paying me good $$$ and I’m also trying to work things into a better light if this potential new gig falls completely through, so…
Lots to work on!!
Plus I need a hair cut! Funny, I have now been trimming my own hair for YEARS and it is so out of shape. Friday night I got a text from my friend Cindy. She’s been dating a hairstylist for over a year and he’s done AMAZING things with her hair. So she texted me asking who does my hair since she’s no longer going to be getting her hair cut from her ex, and I was embarrassed to tell her ME.
So I’ve been on a search for someone new. I know this guy who might be able to work with me, but I think he’s more of a colorist. I don’t mess with the color of my hair, grays and all (!) so I’m hoping that he can do a consultation OR show me some things he’s done with long hair.
Anyway, just some rambling thoughts. I need to get going or I won’t have any daylight with which to spray paint my side tables.
Happy Sunday!
I love yous!!
GS
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