So, yeah, see the title.
Part of it is other stuff but most of it is this bloody myspace movie thing.
I’m having real problems getting it written. I think that a huge part of it that I’m not really motivated enough. Let me explain.
I’d be fine if I really, really wanted to win it. If the prize was something I really wanted I’d be fine. But it’s not.
As mentioned in the entry linked above, it’s filmmaking by comittee. Which I hate. Had it been what I originally thought it would be (£1 million to make my own film) again I’d have been happy.
The reason I’m entering is because of the opertunity it’ll give me. It’s hard enough trying to break into the industry without turning something like this down. Hell, even if I only get to the pitch stage I’ll get to meet with people from Film4.
But I still feel like I’m entering for the wrong reasons.
I’m enthusiastic about Granite and want to get that finished and made. And I know that entering the comp represents a fantastic opertunity to help get that out there.
But still.
So, yeah. I’m stressed. I’m not sleeping at all well, I’m tense and usually have a headache of some kind.
Hopefully you can make sense of my random babblings above.
Am I right or wrong to feel like this? And should I be so stressed about it?
Will
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