1/23/26 in scarlet_dragon

23 days into the new year and I’m not doing super. It is what it is. I won’t know more for at least a month so until then I guess I need to switch my focus to finding a new primary doctor that won’t give us the run around and make us wait 6-8 months for an appointment.
You know what I miss most about my younger years? Not needing as much medical attention. Things just worked and there weren’t as many issues. I miss that.
I woke up today with a headache and kinda dizzy. Stress most likely catching up. I really wanted to go yesterday and pick up our groceries we do weekly visits on Friday’s. But I talked myself out of it. Well that was a mistake we went this morning and it was a madhouse of people scurrying around buying paper towels, toilet paper, water and bread. I don’t understand the need for these items. Bread I guess to make sandwiches without power but then again I didn’t understand hoarding toilet paper when covid started either.
I’m not sure what to expect with this storm. My biggest issues is if the power goes out. But there’s nothing I can do to prepare for that and so worrying does not a thing. So Im not going to.
We found enough things to make do. My biggest shock were all the veggies being gone. Usually people always go for comfort food like chips, soda, alcohol microwave bullshit etc. So I got what I could for some recipes but will have to omit some things. It is what it is. We have food and such. I’ll probably fill up some water containers later and charge wireless cellphone batteries as a backup. We have a heater that runs on Kerosene so there’s that if need be. I just also need to remind my son to not be a bottomless pit and eat every fucking thing in the house in a day.
He also is suppose to work Saturday. We will see how that goes.
I’ll probably make myself start doing some reading and other chores since there’s no shortage of those around.
It’s around almost 3 now and I’m feeling like my afternoon snooze might be hitting soon.
The husband wound up telling his brother and our nephew that we wouldn’t be going to the wedding here in April. I had always planned on us going. But it is what it is. I’d have thought of making the trip there myself if it wasn’t 8 hours away and I’d need a rental car and then that the wedding travels the same path close to NYC. I refuse to drive anywhere near NYC. I stress out on roads that aren’t even a 10th that busy so I have no business being anywhere near there.
I guess it’s one more mental task off the to do list.
I don’t know sometimes I act like I’m running the country and I’m not. I think it’s soo many years spent in this headspace that I can’t just relax anymore. I think if I magically got those 350,000 things done around here I could finally relax but I think deep down I know that I wouldn’t.
But those are issues for another day. Or at least until after we get though whatever this storm may be.