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Sunday mornings are kind of my favorite part of the week because I can just wake up whenever I feel like it and not have to stumble out of bed like I do during the week.
I’ve dealt with a few pieces of paper here and there that have been sitting in the computer room for weeks. There’s a pile in the back I need to just probably shred it all because it’s been sitting since at least 6 months after we moved in, aka 4.5-5 years ago. So why is it still on the floor in the way? I’m making it my mission to finally get this room cleaned up this year. No more excuses.
I also struggle with my cosmetics hoard. I got rid of a lot of it weeks ago but there’s still a lot. One thing is a eyeshadow palette. I bought it off Mercari and the seller seemed like they were selling legit makeup but I kind of question it now but I used it one time on Thanksgiving 2024 and I wound up getting really sick on Thanksgiving (not related) but then I got pink eye too. So then I never wanted to use it again even tho I doubt it came from that. In my mind I feel that’s where it came from. So I need to just toss it. I need to stop falling prey to every ad and influencer showing off the new products that I’ll never use.
So yea.
The weather is getting chiller here again. Dunno if it’ll stay that way for a while or not.
The son if off to work for 4 hours. Think the newness of working has already wore off for him. It doesn’t take much.
I keeping getting sidetracked and distracted around here when I set down to actually do something. It’s starting to get really annoying. I honestly think it’s the amount of crap I own. I know a lot of Hoarders don’t consider themselves Hoarders but I’m not at Hoarder level here. I do know that. I know I was closer to it about 14 years ago when my shopping was really bad. I think it’s when it reached going to the thrift stores and goodwills once a week I just would start hauling in all sorts of stuff I didn’t need for future projects that never happened. I have pictures somewhere of that mess as a reminder to not let it get that way. But I do feel that tendency wanting to poke it heads out from under the other unaddressed issues in my life.
Sigh.
I woke up yesterday morning to some terrible fucking news. A guy who I use to be friends with in High School was sentenced to 10-12 years for intentionally running someone over twice. This make the second person who was a friend in HS who is now going to be sitting in jail. Like this guy was the least likely to hurt anyone in HS. He was in my 10th grade math class and we kind of just started talking about video games and I went over to his house a few times to play Mario kart. and we also went to a blink 182 concert as well. I do know that he then asked me out and our friendship kind of fell apart because I wasn’t interested in him in that way. He was a grade ahead of me in school so once he graduated we didn’t talk again much. I found him on Facebook and I met up with him one more time about 6 months before I got married and left our hometown. I had to drive to some random place in a bad part of town because he didn’t have a car and we went to dinner but that was it and it was kinda weird and forced and I dropped him off and said I’d be in touch. We stayed Facebook friends but then he dissapeared and would only be online once or twice a year. From what I could tell it kind looks like he fell into drugs. I get we all change after HS or we hope so for the better..but what happened? Does one wrong step just lead to a cascade? I feel bad for his family he had a younger sister and his parents were the typical white suburba never hurt a fly kind of people. Or that’s always the impression I got as a kid.
So yea. That’s been weighing on my mind the last day. I know there’s nothing I can do to change this outcome. I didn’t talk to him again after that day 20 years ago so that’s on me too but we were also two different people. I am still friends with hit other good friend who spent a lot more time with him then I did and it’s kind of how I met this guy so I do feel bad for him trying to deal with this.
So yea. That’s what I’ve been up to. Life man....