12-14 in scarlet_dragon

It’s a super windy cold day here today. My outdoor Christmas tree has blown over at least 3 times now to the point where we just left it laying over.
I’ve finished up the task of mixing the cut out cookie dough, rolling the cookies, baking the cookies and then frosting and decorating the cookies.
My teenager likes helping for about 10-15 mins at most. I don’t know if I’ll have it in me next year to do it or not. I know we’re dwindling down to the amount of Christmases we will have left with him wanting to join in until he possibly one day has his own family. Crazy.
I also went through my holiday boxes and gift bags. I have way too many. So I gathered up some of it and gave it away for free. I need to tell myself next year I don’t need anymore tissue or boxes. I don’t need anymore tags, or tape. I’m good on all those things.
I can’t believe Christmas is in 11 days.
I’m not holly jolly. I don’t think I ever will be again. I guess that’s ok. Why force something that isn’t happening?
My husband will only participate in a few holiday things. He’ll watch National Lampoons Christmas vacation every year but that’s about it. He won’t watch any of the other movies with us. He won’t decoration cookies or help with that. I don’t know. He’s always been that way even if it’s kind of disappointing when I know he’s just upstairs staring off into his computer.
It is what it is.
I also need to realize my Mother is possibly coming to visit in 12 days which I haven’t cleaned up anything now.
I also had a new task thrown in my lap that needs done in 16 days. I have to get a piece of paper signed with a witness there and notary then make sure it’s mailed off where it needs to be before the 31st. I don’t want to hit the UPS or Fed EX stores this time of the year with holiday crazies but I will at least have to go there to mail the paperwork. SIGH.
Oh well. Tack that onto a few other things I have to do.
Halfway through year 2009 on my Open Diary. It’s slow going. I keep trudging through. To what end I have no idea. But I feel compelled to at least try to get it all saved. I don’t know.
It’s kind of hard re-reading a lot of it but seeing how much my attitude still mirrors that same way.
I still have to wrap my husband’s gifts. There’s not a ton of them left.