12-10 in scarlet_dragon

I’m here. I had a minor moment this morning where I felt anxiety wanting to strike me down but I tried to focus on one thing instead of the 450 that need done. I wanted to go out to two places this morning but said no. We did go to Walmart but I only picked up some tape and pens. I think I’ll sit down here in a little while and put one last online order at a few places before the holiday season.
I guess my husband texted my Mom asking about her visiting and she said she planned on it. I guess I’m glad he asked. I was unaware. Which means I’m going to have to buckle down on the getting all the extra’s done.
I made it through 2008 on my OpenDiary entries only about 9-10 more years left to copy paste. UGH.
I had something else planned for dinner entirely but the chicken we bought was the only pack left at Walmart last week after holiday rush and it was Tyson and the texture of it was so nasty we barely could eat dinner. So I threw away the half that I had in the freezer from there and will just put fish sticks in the oven. I’m really not wanting to figure out dinner’s ontop of everything else.
I tried one of the “gummies” I ordered from online yesterday. I don’t know if I really mellowed out too much I guess it kind of blanketed my rushing thoughts but I think when I take that kind of stuff I also then do nothing else. So is that better? I don’t know. The husband took one too and I don’t know if I noticed anything too different in his mood maybe a little lighter. There’s just a small amount of THC in them so, take that for whatever it may be.
I did dishes and mixed up some cut out cookie dough. Which we’ll probably roll and bake tomorrow and then decorate maybe Friday or Sat I dunno. Depends on son’s work schedule.
But I should probably go place those online orders and maybe wrap one thing and put out the outside Christmas tree that I’d like to enjoy some this season too.