Sunday. Sunday.Sunday. Not much to say about it. I finally put the last big plastic tote downstairs that had holiday stuff in it. Nothing like doing that and then having to lug it back upstairs in 3 weeks. It doesn’t really feel like December at all.
I’m not in the holly jolly mood. I don’t know if I ever will be again. Along with a lot of things I hold onto this vision of how I hope things to be and then just get disappointed when nothing lives up to it. Character flaw of mine.
It’s suppose to start snowing in the morning. The snow from Friday is already almost melted now. I do say it hasn’t snowed in December anywhere I’ve lived in a long long time. So that is kinda neat. I don’t mind it as long as the heats running and I have coffee and snacks lol.
I still have gifts to wrap. I’m not sure if I’ll be buying anything else or not. If I am I need to do it today or tomorrow.
I was going to go into my son’s room and make him go through all his clothes and do a throw away, donate keep thing. But it’s getting to be a little too late in the day and he heads off to work here in a few hours. But I did see that he doesn’t work again after today until Friday. So maybe once he’s home in the middle of the week from school we will tackle that.
This year was suppose to be the year I started dealing with me issues. But I will say I’m glad I got my kid into the doctors to do PT and some other things. If I can pay for those things now for another year and a month then I’ll do that.
He talks about a trade school possibly seeing as he’d get to go there for free I highly encourage it. I needed him to come to the decision and not us forcing it. It’s kind of insane for me to think about him having about 16 months of school left in his HS career.
Where has the time gone somedays? I think all the copying, pasting over of old diary entries is making me depressed too.
I’m at the point in them where we weren’t pregnant with him yet. I just think of all the emotional trauma that ensued after those years to get me to where I am now. It was a lot.
I just look at these old entries and sure it’s my diary I used it as a place to vent but have I always been this angry? Why? Things like not getting a package delivered on the day it was suppose to would make me rage. So I thought the anger came along post baby but it was always there it just magnified afterwards.
Anyways kind of crazy I took a mini break from typing on here to see about looking into an appointment to get my haircut again. I was just going to look at the days and times and probably not book anything but hit next and it booked it lol. Oh well I guess I do need it done and I’ve been there before with this girl I liked her. I think when I start feeling out of control I go get a haircut to try and feel better. Dunno. I promised myself I would start trying to care about my outward appearance a little more too. But it was funny because I looked at the next Opendiary entry to copy over and it said about how much I needed to finally quit messing around and get a haircut. SO I guess that’s a sign lol.
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