I almost left but mom schizoaffective disorder so bad in Life of a Mama Cat

It's horrible how mom keeps pushing me until I cry. I almost pack my family up and left. My husband made arrangements at his job I had everything packed. She told me go ahead and named 2 people to replace us in a drop of a hat. You shouldnt bully your family into submission. They are trying to help you but your impulsive shopping and blackmail making me look bad is to much. Schizoeffective.has made my mom someone I don't even recognize. She is irrational on what she can and cannot do. She manipulated me and humiliated me until finally I broke down crying. She doesn't care that I hurt she only cares to get her way. I want a family instead I got a 60 year old toddler throwing a fit. I was so embarrassed for her to talk so poorly about me to her family not considering I am trying to help her. I am so tired of the tears I need to find her a place to get her help. I can't handle the stress of her and a 5 month old. I just need a break. She begs me not to leave but damn determine to push me away. I tried to get help from my aunt instead I got lectured