10-18 in scarlet_dragon

Today has been a run around day. I have so many things on my to do list currently that I’m suffering from executive dysfunction. So many things that I need and can be doing but there’s too many and instead of just picking one I sit here messing around on the computer. Like this is the last place I probably need to be but here I am.
It’s D&D Saturday here so the husband’s busy with 4 other people in the basement. I took my son out and we dropped off a UPS package (mercari order) and stopped at Barnes and Noble(didn’t need to be in there). I have no business being in Barnes and Noble for at least 5 years probably. I finished one book 2 days ago…it was such a simple book that if I had sat down and really read I could have finished it in a day and a half but it took me 3 weeks. I know it isn’t a competition or anything but compared to the rate I buy books to which I read them I’ll never finish them all. So it really does need to slow down.
I did go there and picked up 3 books that are Christmas gifts. I wanted to get my niece and nephew each a different book but one that’s my favorite and see if they even read them. I don’t know. I’m just tired of buying junk that’ll wind up broken or thrown away in 6 months. My nephew will most likely just get $ for the rest of his gift.
The reason I’m trying to step up gift buying is I’ll be out of town now for probably at least 9 or 10 days and that’s a lot of time that I should be here getting things done.
I wasn’t able to get a one way rental car so now it’s probably going to have to by my Mom driving here end of the week and staying a day and then us turning around and driving her back home. It’s a whole thing that I don’t even want to get into right now because I have nothing organized for that or planned and I feel like it’ll wind up just me throwing shit into a luggage or giant bag and calling it a day.
I’m also missing my anniversary to do this. Which my mother just realized yesterday. She’s like I guess you guys could go the day before we leave. I said we’re just going to do it later. It’s our 19th anniversary. I’m upset but not as much as I’d have been if it was our 20th. But this year it meant a lot to me to want to celebrate it on the day together because we’ve been working through a rough patch.
Again don’t want to get into it.
I also wound up with a cold a few days ago so I lost 2 days to just being totally sick. I still have a really raspy cough and buzzing in my ear which scares me. I hope it goes away.
I did tell my husband I wasn’t going to be cooking dinner for them today. I have way too much on my plate to think about that and I usually don’t mind cooking for everyone but just not now.
I guess everything is really just dependent on how my mom’s surgery and recovery goes. I can’t sit there for weeks on end. But I’ll also not have a car to get back home here either. I’ll either have to hope they’re doing on way rentals in her city by then or I’ll have to wait until she’s able to ride and drive herself back. it’s just a lot to ask someone who is 70 to travel 7 hours one way and back.
So I’ve been debating on putting up things like Christmas lights this weekend just so that’s done and it’s super nice and sunny out this weekend. My lawn needs mowed in a bad way but I ain’t doing that either. That’s my husband’s chore. I have enough already.
I told myself I have a good chunk of time today to work up here on the spare bedroom and computer room since my Mom will be staying here for just a day I should probably make sure it’s in order.
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So I guess I’ll leave this here I’ve already wasted another hour and half of my time messing about on the computer.