I’m having a homeworkfail night. I’m supposed to be working on my final assignment for my online course, which is due tomorrow, but…nope. Not working thus far.
I’m exhausted. My month of rotations, which was wonderful in many ways, really took it out of me. All of the interacting with tons of people, taking a lot of constructive criticism, and whatnot. Plus, I’m still recovering from Nigel and Nesmith’s deaths. And I’ve had this undercurrent of anxiety that has been growing and growing. Finally figured out what was causing it yesterday. I have my first post-remission CT scan next Monday. I just don’t want to think about it.
On top of all that, we brought my mom to the ER this morning. If you remember, she went in last week and had the cardiac scare that thankfully turned out to be nothing. She’s had the same GI thing on and off for about 2 weeks and last night/this morning was feeling really weak, dizzy, and nauseated. Aaron and I brought her to the ER and, I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again, it is so nice that she works there because her coworkers treat her so well. She was normal on physical exam, bloodwork came back normal. Her doc ordered an MRI of her brain to check for evidence of stroke, brain tumors, etc, but that came back clean. She’s a mystery. She’s supposed to produce a stool sample sometime soon to bring in for them to examine. ::shrugs:: Glad so many things are coming back looking good, but it makes it harder not knowing what’s going on. Plus, she gets really bummed when she’s sick and this has been going on for a while now. I just want her to get better.
My birthday’s on Friday. It’s my golden and I feel like I’m supposed to have some kind of grand golden birthday/fuck you cancer event but all I really want is a month of mind-numbing boredom. And maybe some cake. As is, two of my very kind, lovely lady cousins from NY are coming in for Thanksgiving to visit family and such and are taking me out on my birthday. I’m sure it’ll be fun, but I wish could be a curmudgeon and stay home in my pj’s, cuddled up with Aaron and the critters.
Off to go avoid doing homework some more. I just want to watch superhero movies and go to bed.
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