I am an introvert. I never got this kind of credit when I was growing up. As a child, I was labeled as shy. Maybe I was anti-social? I never argued any of that at the time because I didn't know what an introvert was. I didn't care that I was shy. That's just the way I was and as it turns out, in adulthood, it just goes by a much different name. Regardless of what it was called, then or now, I never cared how other people saw it.
I don't why, but it feels as though I had to tell more than a few people this week that I am an introvert and that I tend to find entertainment in much different things than most people. Just having that kind of conversation tends to leave me open to ridicule and judgment.
People like going to concerts and enjoying music in very open and public venues. I do not. You will never find me at any concert because I don't like crowds. I don't care for live music. I can be just as content, if not more so, listening to music by myself wearing headphones. I do this sort of thing all the time, especially at work. My headphones are just as important to me during my work day as my computer and keyboard.
People like going to parties and being around other people, sometimes even people they don't know. I do not. I don't get excited when people talk about parties and how much fun get-togethers can be. I don't look forward to being around people, especially people I don't know. Maybe there's some comfort that can be found when it comes to familiarity? I've just never been the kind of person who looks forward to meeting new people. I don't care for networking. I'm not trying to develop any social circles, though that doesn't mean that I don't belong to any already. I just don't seek out people because it might be fun to socialize.
People like talking to others. I do not. By talking, I mean engaging in actual face-to-face conversations. I don't necessarily seek to talk to others, but if it has to happen, I can and will engage. I can fake a conversation if I have to, though I can be especially relieved when those kinds of conversations come to an end. I suppose if I have a preferred method of communicating with others, it would be through writing. This would be through text messaging, e-mails, and even writing in an online diary/journal, not unlike this one. I will always opt to write something down, as opposed to saying something verbally and out loud. This is why I seem to excel when it comes to text message conversations.
I don't and have never looked towards others to keep me entertained. Maybe in that regard, I learned to be self-efficient and independent? I always believed, again going back to when I was a child, that I shouldn't depend on others to entertain me or to keep me entertained. As an adult, this never changed. I entertain myself in a variety of ways. Obviously, I enjoy writing. As much as I enjoy writing, I never got into reading as something that I could in a recreational capacity. I know that reading and writing tend to go hand-in-hand, but I just never found myself reading for fun. Maybe I should clarify that? I don't read novels. Being that I am literate, I'll read stuff, just not books. I consider myself lucky in that I still have a decent vocabulary, even without my extensive involvement in the world of books. I like words, I suppose.
As I mentioned earlier, I enjoy music, though not only for sound, but also for lyrical content. I see music as poetry sent to sound, beats, and rhythm. While I would prefer that a song draw me in with its sound first, there are some instances where I can forego the sound (if I don't find it appealing) if the lyrics resonate with me. This sort of thing does not happen often and because of that, I have to like the beat for a song to draw me in. Today's music is just terrible, both in terms of sound and lyrical content, but that's content for a future entry.
I am a gamer, first and foremost. As long as I have electricity, a screen, and a working game console with software, I will be fine. I will likely delve into my gaming lifestyle in a future entry, but if I had to narrow it down to my one passion in life, it would gaming. I've been doing it since I was 4-years old and I'll admit that it has always been a part of my identity. Barring some kind of condition that restricts my ability to hold a controller and press the buttons on it, I will be gaming until I die. Of course, my eyes and vision would have to hold up as well, even if I have to rely on corrective lenses. i used to wear glasses as a child. I suspect that I'll probably have to wear them again at some point as my eyes naturally deteriorate. It's coming. It's only a matter of when. But yes, gaming is my thing and it has been for many years. It will continue to be, so long as my hands, coordination, and eyes all hold up.
So that's me a nutshell and in no particular order. Introvert. Writer. Selective music enthusiast. Minimal reader. Gamer.
I don't know if there's more to me than that. If that's the case, I guess that makes me pretty simple and perhaps, not as interesting as I may have seen myself in my head.
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