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Kind of fell off the updating wagon. Not that I had too much to update on anyways. Like continues on like usual. I had some pretty significant things happen about two weeks ago but don’t feel like rehashing them right now. All things said though I started to look around for therapist that take our insurance because I’ve put it off for probably 10 years and it’s time. I think I owe it to myself and my family to be the best version of myself that I can. And lately it hasn’t been that.
We finally had my son’s Ortho appointment and thankfully that doctor said his one thigh is tighter than the other one. So it’s what has been causing his foot to turn out when he walks. Basically gave us a one time referral for PT and he can do the exercises at home and that should fix it. I like easy solutions, for once in my life.
It always feels like I’ve been hurdling for years now. So when life finally tosses me an easy one I take it.
Somedays I feel completely fine and ready to take on the world. Then other days depression knocks me off my feet and makes even just feeding myself seem pointless.
So I have to try new ways to do things and not keep repeating the same old patterns.
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I had started this entry yesterday and then forgot about it and then the last part of the evening was me in bed crying my eyes out.
I don’t know. I do feel like I finally got a lot off my chest these last few weeks that Ive been keeping to myself. So there is that
I still am struggling with getting the 2000 tasks I need done, done. If I just spend an entire day focused on that I could probably knock a lot of it off the list.
I went by the dentist office because I got a bill from them which I never do, my son and I both had cleanings and X-rays last month like usual and I got 4 different checks from our insurance which also never happens either. The dentist office couldn’t really say for sure other then insurance must have made a mistake but I wound up having to fork over another 75.00 on top of the 140.00 my insurance gave me so I’m not quite sure what that was about. If it happens again at our next appointments I’ll be calling insurance I guess. So between the 211.00 and then another 220.00 for my sons’ contacts yesterday I’m spent out.
Work has been going good for him. The husband took him to the bank he wanted and opened a checking account. My son done and went and grown up. Although he’s now called home from school twice since starting less then a month ago and has also had to leave early twice for appointments now too. He’s got another one coming up in a few weeks and also that PT once I get it booked somewhere.
It’s really a challenge booking between his schedule at work/school, husband’s appointments and only having one car. It’s a lot.
Other than that, I wish our country could simmer down. I’m emotionally run over by that all the time too. To the point where I can’t dwell in the news too long. I can’t ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist but I can’t let it take away from my now.