August is about to end.
I’m still here. Yes! Managed to hang on. Still here. I haven’t written here for years. I think I started a Wordpress and abandoned this somehow, plus I’ve taken to journalling in the Starbucks notebook a while ago just to justify the money I spent on all those coffee and to not feel like such a social climber.
Life is fine. My brain has been a little foggy these past several years - most likely due to vaping. I can’t bring myself to quit it. If I quit vaping, I would keep eating, the glutton that I am. Oh well. Choose your sin, right? It’s one of those days when I feel my age, you know? Not old, not quite young. The middle of the middle of the middle. Is this it?
Doing nothing. Got laid off work (well, separated) and I’m still quite numb to it all. Trying to keep anxiety away. Still, some days it starts to creep up on me. It’s not really the financial difficulties it would lead to… more the boredom. Without work, what would I even wake up for? That’s the tough thing about the way I designed my life. No family, not many friends, no meaningful hobbies. I really was better off spending this lifetime as a mushroom in the forest… oh well. I might take some time later to put my past wordpress entries here. If I can muster the energy that is. We’ll see.
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